Journey to a New Me

New size!

2011-07-16T18:40:00.000-07:00

Okay so I haven't lost any weight lately...but I have lost a few inches. I'm hovering between 156-163lbs, a medium top and as of today here is my new pant size:

Seriously!!! A size 11 JUNIORS!!! *No...I did not pay full price for them either*
Apparently my Mom as well as a few of my co-workers have complained that all I wear is yoga pants, which is pretty much true. In my defense, yoga pants are comfy, stretchy and breathable. They have been the only pants in which the butt does NOT sag...nor is the waist too tight or too loose. It is so much easier for me to wear the yoga pants as opposed to find a pair of pants that actually fit me.
Anyhow....during lunch at work the other day, the following commercial came on t.v....in which my co-workers all looked at me and started laughing saying "This is YOU!" This is sad...but yes....this is me..enjoy:

Oye...carbs...

2011-06-09T17:33:00.000-07:00

So about two weeks ago, I started adding in steel cut rolled oats into my diet.
I figured that A) it's got plenty of fiber and B) I LOVE a cinnamony cup of oatmeal from time to time.
Well...since then I have added Kashi cereal *aka 35 g CARB* as well as pb crackers *aka 20gCARB*
What is the result of adding these carbs into my diet??? I will tell you...MASSIVE CARB CRAVINGS!
It becomes more and more apparent everyday that I am a carb-junky. I cannot do just a little bit of carbs and be okay. *Carbs meaning any types of flour, wheat, pasta, bread, starchy veggies*

I wish I could be that RNY patient that can eat what they want in moderation...but I'm NOT. My body tends to lean towards the glucose intolerant side. I mean it when I say that I feel like a drug addict when it comes to carbs. Just a little...and it's ALL down hill from there!

Anyhow, to rectify the situation, I have gone through my pantry and gotten rid of all icky carby products.
I did keep a few packs of s.f. oatmeal that only has 15 carbs a serving. If I do get a 'hankering' for carbs and all other backup plans fail....I will make this with half a scoop of protein powder and lots of cinnamon. This will A.) satisfy carb craving and B.) give me around 15 grams of protein. Most oatmeal has 20+ g carbs per serving, so this product is the lesser of the evils. Again...this is last resort only.

Sadly, I have gained 2 lbs in the last two weeks....BUT onward and upward!! *And by upward I am not talking about the weight on the scale!!* LOL
I know what to do now, and I intend to do it!

Does anyone else suffer from carb-sensitivity, like me?

Oh, I have SO much to update!

2011-05-01T17:15:00.000-07:00

Well yes...I've been a slacker as far as updating this blog is concerned...BUT I do have good things to report!

1.) I have found an exercise that is fun, gets me energized and makes me feel amazing!! What is this amazing exercise??? ZUMBA!! I have seen all the ads and infomercials on ZUMBA and thought...yeah...it's dancing...whoopie.... Well, a girl I work with has been asking me to attend a local ZUMBA class for awhile..and I finally went this past Thursday.
It was 60 minutes (though it only felt like 20) of high energy, motivating awesomeness! Naturally the girl that invited me is skinny, beautiful and use to do aerobics for many many years. I don't know how, but I kept up with her!
It was the first time, in I cannot tell you how long, that I got lost in what I was doing and loved it. I have found my new stress/fun outlet!!

2.) I am currently hovering between 158-159 (no 160's!! yay!!)
I'm hoping that with the ZUMBA I will get off the rest of the weight. Realistically...I will be quite content at 150. *even though BMI I am suppose to weigh between 135-145 lbs*

3.) Carb wise I am between 28-35 carbs per day, 6 days a week...on the 7th day I allow myself to indulge a little bit...to around 50 carbs.

4.) For awhile, I've been wanting to reward myself for losing 130+ lbs. Nothing sounded good: ie: clothes, day at the spa etc. Well after having a much needed 'girl's weekend' with some ladies I work with, it dawned on me...I want a tattoo! Naturally being a RNY patient that has lost weight, I love the whole concept of butterflies. I love butterflies anyways...but now they have more meaning to me. Okay, you may not know this about me...but I do NOT like pain. I'm a wuss...nay.. I am a despiser of pain lol
How I got through even getting the tattoo is beyond me. I got a small pink/purple butterfly on the top of my foot-somewhere I could hide it if need be. This is a hug milestone for me and I wanted something meaningful as a reminder of this milestone. Will I get another tattoo...probably not! I did it though, and I have absolutely no regrets. :-)

I can tell that my body is changing still. My face is a lot thinner, as is my arms and legs. Sadly, the boobs have shrunk waaaay too much. The only 'flab-ish' parts I have are my upper back *around the bra area* and the belly. I can't help but wonder how much of this is just loose skin from me being so obese before.
Sadly, I have already had thoughts of wanting plastic surgery one day. Nothing major like a tummy tuck *ouch! I have seen these done where I work and they look painful!* I was thinking more along the lines of a breast lift/augmentation...just to get the 'girls' looking normal again. I don't want Dolly Parton boobs, but I would like something better than deflated balloons.... Again...this is 'one day'...meaning no time soon. And who knows, maybe I will just grow to love every part of me and just forget the surgery idea!

I hope I do grow to love my imperfections. I think the world is so engrossed in the idea of 'perfection'. Yes I have stretch marks and excess skin and my body does not look very proportioned at present....but it's me. I feel a million times better NOW than I EVER have in my life! I feel like the inner me is finally lining up with the outer me. I can remember many, many times that I looked in the mirror and expected to see someone smaller, and healthier...only to see an obese/depressed girl looking back at me. In my mind's eye, I still see myself as the obese/depressed girl...but when I look in the mirror I see what I should've seen all along...a happy/healthy girl ready to take on the world!

I stumbled upon a photo the other day. It's a photo my Mom took while I was in the hospital, after I had my RNY surgery. *Side story before I show the pic*

My current boyfriend and I dated about 7 years ago. Although we dearly loved each other, we were both not ready to be in a relationship at that time, for many reasons. Over the course of 5 years, I would get an email from him from time to time just checking in on me-but nothing more.
Fast forward to November 24th, 2009.........
I'm laying in a hospital bed, looking quite disheveled-hooked up to IV lines and all that jazz. I had just gotten back from the recovery unit and somehow walked from the stretcher to my bed. I remember talking with my Mom...and then all of a sudden she looked out the door of the room and her jaw drops. She looked at me and said, "Amy, you'll never guess who's here..." Naturally, I'm all goofy from the Morphine and say, "Ha ha...that would be funny if it was 'C' ..." At that same moment, 'C' walked right into my room.
It gets kind of foggy, but I remember him giving me a stuffed animal-bird and feeding me ice chips.
We started dating only 2 months after he came back into my life that night in my hospital room. I was in love with him 5 years ago, and even more in love with him now. He told me that he thought I was beautiful laying in that hospital bed, even though I weighed 290lbs... I knew that if he could love the 'obese me', that he could love the 'healthy me'.
And now the picture.....

Being honest with myself...

2011-03-17T02:55:00.000-07:00

So I've been batteling the +4 and -4 lbs...but why? I still have a ways to go to get to goal!
Well, in a nutshell, I have NOT been honest with myself.
Renegade thoughts like, "Oh, you're doing great...this little bit of carb won't hurt" or "it's a special occasion...it's okay"
Get the picture??
Well, I've been a member of Sparkpeople website for quite a few years. I log food entries, exercise etc. It's a free website with LOTS of excellent resources for a healthier lifestyle.
Well, this morning I open my email and get this blog entry from a fellow member:

Being Honest With Myself

If I told you I found the secret to success and happiness; if I told you that you could wrap up all of your self-help books and sell them at the book and music exchange; if I told you that you never had to track your food or exercise, ever again you wouldn't believe me, would you? You'd be anticipating that now famous line "But wait there's more..." Well, friends I found it, quite by accident, but I found it and it's as plain as the nose on my face. It's called honesty, more specifically being honest with myself. I can be honest with and about you until the cows come home. I can be supportive and loving and all that cool stuff but until I am honest with myself about who and what I am and how far I need to travel, then it's just a really nice exercise.

BTW: Honesty does not mean beating yourself up. It's why we are afraid to examine it. Some brilliant person many eons ago took the basic principle of physics and applied it to everything in God's creation: "For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction." We've taken that maxim and engraved it upon our souls altering it to mean "For every fault there should be an equal amount of guilt, pain and frustration and oh BTW I'll never into my dream outfit!!!"

So let me be honest

I abuse food. It's my drug of choice. Everything I have learned in the past fifty seven years tells me what is good for my body and what will ultimately harm it. I choose to ignore those warnings. I'd rather dwell on how difficult it is and give myself a pass. My grocery store has two entrances. The first leads you right into the produce and health food departments. That's where all the good stuff is. The second entrance barely allows you the opportunity to catch your breath when you are accosted by a display of cookies, cakes donuts, pies or candy, depending on the time of week or the season. I know when I walk through door two I am most likely going to grab something that isn't good for me. It may taste good. It may provide some gastric pleasure, but when I step on the scale every Thursday I really shouldn't be too surprised when the needle doesn't move, should I? If I walk through door number one I am more likely to get a more positive result. Door two tastes better but door one gives me a long term result... one I am looking for.

Honesty drives everything about us. Only I know when I'm not telling you the truth but in short order it begins to show. When I am not honest with myself I get results because I can adjust the way I live to help me reach my goals and objectives. When I tell myself "it's okay to cheat," then as my trainer told me once when I wouldn't hold a plank correctly, "The only person you are cheating is yourself, John." Amen.

You don't need to take a billboard out on the interstate and advertise your flaws. Find out what's holding you back and come up with a plan to deal with it. Pat yourself on the back for being brilliant enough to think of it. Honesty has nothing to do with guilt. It has everything to do with seeing how far you've come and realizing how far you have to go. We treat it as a sad occasion but really, isn't it a cause to celebrate? You've found the secret of your success.

Click here to read his blog

I don't know about you, but I REALLY needed to read this. It's no wonder why I am not losing anymore weight! Instead of being strict like I should be, I've been allowing far too many things 'sneak' into my daily life that shouldn't be there.

Hmmm...food for thought...

WOW...what a week...

2011-03-08T12:32:00.000-08:00

So my family and I experienced a tragedy last week, my oldest brother died in an accident...he was only 33 years old. We were devastated...needless to say, the last couple of days have sucked as far as my healthy high protein low carb eating goes.
I promised myself that I would find a different 'outlet' for times like this. Sadly, what I've been doing the past 2 days is emotionally eat...nothing ridiculous, but still eating when I'm not hungry.
I still feel numb from the situation...like my body and mind have been shot full of xylocaine.
Anyhow, I'm thankful that I am realizing the situation and as of RIGHT NOW I will nip this in the bud! No more white carbs...my body cannot handle white carbs, potatoes, sweets, bread, rice nor noodles. The past 3 days I've had half of a slice of bread and today a few bites of cake.
My body is really REALLY hating me right now and I want to get off these last 9 lbs!!!
I am still exercising each day, which I'm thankful for...but I'm definitely not losing any weight.

Shew...how do you all handle stress?? What are some ways to deal with stress in your life that are healthy? I'm thinking reading, blogging, drawing, exercising, sleeping....
Sleep is what I've been deprived of the past week....so my plan is to get to bed early tonight so I can feel better for work tomorrow.

Sorry that this post is a bit of a bummer, but I promise the next one will be better and more cheerful.

Until next time..

Remembering where I came from...

2011-02-27T10:35:00.000-08:00

Some days, like today, I get a little down on myself. It's so easy to look at all of your imperfections...the things that are STILL not up to par....

For example....the infarmous Bat Wing, yes I'm working on this with weight training 2-3 days a week...and it is getting better. But it's hard not to get a little impatient about it.lol

Another example, even though I've been blessed to lose 128 lbs in 15 months *which is awesome!* I STILL have this nagging line in my head of, "you've STILL got 12 more pounds to lose! Why aren't they aren't off yet! Other people have reached their goal by now!"

What helps me during times like these are A.) looking at before and after photos B.) comparing my quality of life before RNY and now C.) focusing on the GOOD things that have happened and the good things that WILL happen:

Dec 2009 Feb 2011

Well, a quote from a wonderfully inspiring lady, Joyce Meyer, hits home for me today,

"I'm not where I need to be but THANK GOD I'm not where I use to be!"

AMEN!!

**Take home message: Focus on the good, NOT the bad!!

Happy Sunday!

2011-02-20T09:45:00.000-08:00

So today is pretty day #3 here in Tennessee. Everyone is enjoying the beautiful Spring-like weather! Today is suppose to get to 63 degrees *yay!*
I've already gone for my mile walk outside today and got a nice dose of good ole' vitamin D. The birds are singing their praises this morning and there is a slight crisp breeze!

I am finally down to 162lbs *YAY!* I was at 163 waaaay too long lol So that makes my goal now 12 lbs away!
In the exercise department, I am kicking butt and taking names! Mon/Wed/Fri 2 miles walking/aerobics and Tue/Thurs resistance band training w/ab workout.
I feel awesome since I started working out. I feel more energized, not as achy in my joints and I feel as though I walk with more confidence now.

I'm getting more into the bariatric friendly cooking/baking now. Eggface rocks my world with her creative cooking ideas! Check the pic of my attempt of Eggface's recipe of Shelly's Protein Truffles:

They are currently chilling in the fridge, but I look forward to trying one later!

Anyhow, that's all I've got for now. I hope everyone is having a very blessed day.
Have a great week everyone!

Happy Valentine's Day everyone!!

2011-02-14T12:06:00.000-08:00

ALSO, don't forget to check out Eggface's blog!! She has a cool Valentine's Day Give Away!!

On fire with exercise!!!

2011-02-11T15:42:00.000-08:00

Sorry for the hiatus, work has been VERY busy lately and I've had MANY projects to do as well as the usual day-to-day stuff.

Anyhow...YES, by the grace of God, I have worked out 6 days this week!! *whoo whoo!!*

Mon/Wed/Fri I walked/jogged 2 miles a day and Sun/Tue/Thurs I did resistance band training for upper and lower body as well as ab work.
What's my secret for ACTUALLY being able to do this you ask? Aside from praying, I set my alarm clock 20 min earlier and I do half of my day's workout as soon as I get up *before I drink my protein shake*.
I can SERIOUSLY tell a difference in my energy level and my physique!!

I'm holding steady at 163 lbs right now...still have 13lbs left to lose but I know they will melt off eventually. I just need to keep on keeping on!!

As usual, Eggface is my bariatric cooking hero!! I cannot tell you how many of her delicious protein shakes I've tried and LOVED!!
My top favorite protein shakes by Eggface :

Shelly's Pecan Pie Protein Shake

1 cup Vanilla Soy Milk (or Regular Milk)
1 scoop Vanilla Protein Powder
1 Tablespoon Sugar Free Vanilla Torani Syrup
1 Tablespoon Pecans
1 teaspoon Imitation Butter Extract (in the extract/seasoning section)
2-3 cubes of Ice

Whiz in blender till smooth. Top with a squirt Sugar Free Land o Lakes Whipped Cream and a few more chopped Pecans, optional.

**Zamy's FAV Eggface shake below!!**

Shelly's Tiramisu Protein Smoothie

2 cups Soy Milk (you can use ANY milk)
2 Tablespoons Sugar Free Kahlua Syrup
1 Tablespoon Sugar Free Cheesecake Jello Pudding Mix, dry
1 packet of Instant Coffee Granules (you know those Taster's Choice or Starbuck's Via tubes)
1/4 cup Chocolate Protein Powder
1 cup Ice
Optional topping: Whipped Cream and Sugar Free Chocolate

Add liquids to blender first, then ice, then powders. Blend on high till smooth. Serve with optional squirt of Whipped Cream and dusting of shaved Sugar Free Chocolate.

OMG.....check out the newest protein shake recipes she added this week:

GIRL SCOUT COOKIE COMBAT

Check out Shelley's version of Caramel delites/Samoas!!

............Until next time!! Take care everyone!

"Cheat meal" = bad idea!!

2011-01-22T07:22:00.000-08:00

While at work yesterday, I had the 'genius' idea of having a "cheat meal" for dinner lastnight. I thought to myself, 'I deserve this! I've been so good for weeks and one little meal couldn't hurt, especially since I cannot eat much at one time anyways.' So I was hell bent on having my "cheat meal" lastnight. I thought and thought about what I wanted ...and I just really couldn't figure it out. *this should've been my first clue*
So I went to the store, walked down the 'forbidden aisles'....it was funny because the things I once thought were fabulous...just didn't sound appealing to me anymore. So after walking around forever, I decided I wanted some potato chips for salty/crunchy, a slice of cake for sweet....then I thought hmmmm I haven't had frosted mini wheats in awhile..that is both sweet AND crunchy!!
So I get home and pour out a few mini wheats and soak them in milk *yes I know...not crunchy for long* so I take one bite...chew thoroughly get it good and mushy and swallow. I kid you not...about one minute later it feels as though my pouch has glass shards in it! I felt as though I just swallowed razor blades! I was doubled over in pain for a good 30 minutes...all for one lousy mushy bite of something that didn't even taste very good.
So after the pain went away...I decided to try a couple potato chips...these DID go down well, only they just didn't taste as good as they use to.
Another 15 minutes later I tried a few bites of cake....and needless to say it was soooo sweet that I flew to the bathroom with good ole' "dumping syndrome" shortly thereafter.

Basically my "cheat meal" was a joke...I ended up hurting myself over crap food that once held a place in my heart. When it was all said and done, I took some anti nausea medicine, threw all of the junk food away and passed out in bed.

Now this morning I feel as though I have a hangover! I seriously feel like crap!

Lesson learned: cheat meals are really not worth it...especially when you can't really find anything you REALLY want. I will stick to Atkins and be a happy girl.

Ready to move forward!!!

2011-01-12T16:09:00.000-08:00

As stated in a previous post, I was blessed not to gain weight during the holidays...seeing as I wasn't exactly an angel with my halthy low carb eating.

Well, as of last Monday I decided to get serious about losing my last 20 lbs! To assist in 'kick starting' my weightloss, I have opted to do an Atkin's-ish eating regimen. ie: very high protein low carb eating regimen *and by low carb I mean like 20 net carbs a day for 2 weeks* then of course adding 5 good carbs *complex carbs* each week until I reach my goal of 150lbs.

Also, I'm really making an effort to drink more water. I've been averaging 6-7 cups a day...almost the 8-8 oz cups I truly need each day.

Naturally I've started a regular cardio workout schedule for 20 min a day 3 days a week. Next week I'm adding 2 days of weight training in addition to the 3 days of cardio. I figure that if I can ease my way into a routine I'll be more apt to stick with it.

So far I've lost 2 lbs and I am extatic about this!! I've noticed that as I get closer to goal weight, it gets harder to lose even just 1 lb a week!

Also, just found out this week that I've been honored to be a 'testimonial' for the weight loss surgery center where I had my RNY: (click pic to enlarge)

We've had a LOT of cold weather and snow here in Tennessee this week. I can honestly say that I am READY for Spring!!!

Anyhow, that's all I've got for right now. Until next time!

Ulcer update and such

2010-12-28T13:24:00.000-08:00

Wow...I've been such a slacker with updating this past month! To be quite honest, not a whole lot has happened.
Yesterday, I finally got to see my bariatric surgeon, 'Dr. H', to follow up on the EGD I had back in October concerning a possible ulcer. He said that there was a teeny tiny ulcer on the anastamosis that was made connecting the intestine to the new pouch. He also said that there were 2 staples and 1 retained suture from where he made the anastamosis back in Nov 2009..LOL He went ahead and took them out, and said that he is not worried about the ulcer whatsoever! Basically he wants me to take my proton pump inhibitor once a day for the rest of my life, and to follow up with him at least once a year after this!

As far as weight loss goes, I haven't really lost anymore weight, but again I haven't really tried to either. I've just wanted to successfully get through the holiday's with NO weight gain. I can happily say that I have not gained any weight this holiday season! *yippee!!*
As soon as I woke up this morning, I was right back to the grind with my high protein, very low carb eating. I find that this works best for me as far as losing weight is concerned.

Also discovered that what was once fat on my tummy is just now skin...lol and I desperately need to to some toning up around my midsection. I can wear medium to small shirts now, and could probably fit into a size 10 jeans....if it weren't for the excess skin. I do want to see if I can tone my belly with some ab work over the next few months.

Anyhow, that's all I've got for now. Take care, and I will update later!

1 Year out and things I'm thankful for

2010-11-28T12:57:00.000-08:00

So as of last Wednesday I am now officially 1 year postop RNY surgery! I praise God for allowing me to have had this surgery. I cannot even begin to described the MANY ways in which my life has changed for the better!! Okay...maybe I can...
-I've lost 118 lbs! That is the equivalent of the complete set of Encyclopedia Britannica

-I have a crazy amount of energy on a daily basis, I rarely am able to stay at home and do nothing! I use to be the biggest hermit...not wanting to get out and do things b/c I was ashamed of myself.
-I actually look forward to clothing shopping and just found out that I am now a size 12! That's a heck of a lot better than a size 26! I no longer have to shop at Lane Bryant!
-I have a crazy desire to exercise now...and I like it! I actually am making a habit to hit the gym a couple of days a week. Love the elliptical/treadmill and bike.
-My thyroid is finally regulated for the first time since high school!
-I can very comfortably buckle my seat belt in my car...with lots of extra slack!
-I am no longer prediabetic, my blood sugar is normal these days
-No longer have high cholesterol, nor high triglycerides
-I can ride a roller coaster!

I can honestly say that I've never been happier!

On a more serious note, I have noticed a rather annoying eating patter as of late: The munching on crunchy food when I get stressed. It is particularly bad when I am dealing with family or work related problems. Thankfully, I now see this habit and I am determined to nip it in the bud!
I am CONSTANTLY keeping tabs to make sure I eat because it's time to eat or because I am TRULY physiologically hungery. Again, I cannot reiterate enough that this is a daily battle for me. Emotional eating has not left me....but again I am dealing with it one day at a time.
It's especially hard around the holidays, with so much 'crap food' around. Nine times out of ten, I can refuse the unhealthy foods and feel absolutely fine about it.
As far as calories and such goes, I am now allowing myself 1100-1200 calories a day along with 75-100 grams of carbs *in which I try to stay below 80* and 75-110 grams of protein.
The big thing for me now is making sure that my carbs are NOT refined...but complex ie: natural from dairy, fruits and veggies. I finally figured out that I cannot have snack foods in the house ie: triscuits for the shear fact that when I get stressed I tend to eat them instead of healthier foods.

I'm currently stalled on my weight loss due most likely to the fact that I've had too many refined carbs and not enough good carbs.

I have been researching the 5 day pouch test . I really do want to try this just to see if 1) I can wean myself off of simple carbs 2) increase my daily water intake 3) increase my non-starch fruit and veggies food intake and 4) get back to losing weight again...1 to 2 lbs per week.

That is all I've got for now! Have a great week everyone!

Eggface recipe saves the day again!!

2010-11-14T16:45:00.000-08:00

Okay, have I ever told you how much I love Eggface??
Just when I feel as though I get in a rut with eating bariatric friendly foods, she surprises me again with some awesome and easy to make foods!

My fav right now:

Shelly's Ricotta Bake Cups

1/2 cup Ricotta Cheese

1 Tablespoon Parmesan, grated

1 Egg Yolk

1/2 teaspoon Italian Seasonings (Oregano, Basil, Garlic Blend)

a few twists of Black Pepper

Mozzarella Cheese, shredded

Large Pepperoni Slices (from deli department, not prepackaged)

Mix all ingredients together (except mozzarella cheese and pepperoni slices) till well blended.

Place a pepperoni slice in each hole of a mini muffin tin. Spoon a tablespoon of ricotta mixture into each pepperoni "cup" sprinkle top with a pinch of mozzarella cheese.

Bake at 375 for 10 minutes. Allow to cool slightly and remove from tin. Reheat in toaster oven or broiler.

**AMY NOTE** I actually didn't have any large pepperoni slices, so I used thinly sliced turkey breast meat instead and it still rocks!!!

If you haven't visited Eggface's page yet please do!

11 Month Belated Photos

2010-11-13T08:25:00.000-08:00

Hello, everyone! Sorry it's been awhile since I've updated. I just got back from a much needed vacation to south Florida! Got to spend time with my amazing family as well as romp around Universal studios.

Of course I didn't lose any weight while I was on vacation, actually I believe I gained 2 lbs...but I'm pretty sure its because I was mostly sedentary while in FL. Anyhow, now I'm back and I'm back on track with my food journaling and exercise! I've found that food journaling keeps me honest...as well as help me see where I can subtract carb/calorie wise from my diet.

Anyhow, I do have new pics. They are of me at 174!! My one year surgiversary is Nov 24th and I cannot wait!
It's crazy to think that in only a year, I've lost 116 lbs!!

Me before at 290lbs Oct 2009 Me now 174lbs Oct 2010

EGD Results

2010-10-31T14:00:00.000-07:00

Had my EGD on Friday, by my RNY surgeon, Dr. 'H'. Had yet another great experience at the outpatient surgery center I went to! Excellent staff-very friendly, great service!
Anyhow, after I woke up from the procedure I was told that Dr. 'H' found one small ulcer. I'll have to call his office on Monday to figure out where the ulcer was. Anyways, I was told that he was not very worried about it. Dr. 'H' put me on a stronger proton pump inhibitor (PPI) and he really thinks this will take care of it!

I'm sure I will have another follow up EGD in a few months to check on it.

Thank you, Lord, that everything is going to be okay!

*****Confession time*******
So Friday night was a Halloween party that one of my fellow co-workers hosted. Needless to say...I consumed WAAY too many refined carbs.....and yes...as usual I feel like crap. On top of which I also now have a cold. *double joy* It's the usual bloated/gassy/lethargic feeling of carb overload.
I know better, and it shall not happen again. I am quite happy eating low carb and high protein anyways.
Anyhow, aside from the chicken and stars I'm sipping on now...it's back to protein Protein PROTEIN and low carb!! I feel sooo much better eating this way. I almost always have energy, feel satisfied and not guilty. lol
Anyhow, that's all I've got for an update now. Check out the pretty fall photos I've taken over the past few weeks!

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=324832&id=505564895&l=a765d663a2

Happy Halloween everyone!

Possible road bump...again...

2010-10-25T17:52:00.000-07:00

So the past few weeks I've been having problems with 'heartburn'. I've woken up a couple of nights around 2 a.m. with NASTY heartburn and mild pain around my 'pouch area'.
I take Prilosec OTC once a day, Tums 1000mg as needed *not exceeding 6 a day* drink milk and eat yogurt. By the grace of God, I have not had a problem whatsoever for the past 3 days.
I did, however, schedule an appointment with my RNY surgeon, Dr. 'H' to see what course of action needs to take place.
First of all, I am proud to say that he is VERY happy with my weight loss so far. 116 lbs in 11 months, and still losing 1-2 pounds per week! Now officially 14 lbs away from my first goal of 160 and 29 lbs away from my long term goal of 145 lbs.
Anyhow, Dr. 'H' wants me to have an EGD ASAP to check for ulcers. He said that ulcers postop are common. He also said that if I do have an ulcer that he'll put me on Karafate for 90 days and do another EGD to see if they heal. If I do not have an ulcer he said it may be a hiatal hernia causing my heartburn.
We shall see!
I've scheduled my EGD for this Friday morning. Please pray that everything goes wonderfully. Dr. 'H' will be doing this EGD.
I am thankful that my awesome boss at work has allowed me to take the day off to do this. Also, I am thankful that my wonderful boyfriend Craig, will be taking me, as I will not be allowed to drive home after the procedure due to anesthetic still being in my system.

Shew...that's a lot to update! Other than the possible ulcer stuff, all is going well here.

Take care everyone!

EGGFACE IS MY RECIPE HERO!!!

2010-10-12T14:19:00.000-07:00

Okay, for those of you who do not know, I follow a blogger who happens to be a RNY patient. She has a blog: THE WORLD ACCORDING TO EGGFACE and it is awesome! She has a great perspective, positive thoughts and a killer talent for making everyday foods bariatric friendly!

Today I made a recipe of her's for the most delicious apple cinnamon protein muffins! I love these so much that I want to share the recipe. I hope you are willing to try this, you will thank me!!
*also I added chopped pecans to the recipe for extra crunch*

Shelly's Apple Cinnamon Protein Mini Muffins

1 Egg, beaten

3 Tablespoons Milk

2 Tablespoons Sugar Free Vanilla Torani Syrup

2 Tablespoons No Sugar Added Apple Butter

1 Tablespoon Canola Oil

3 Tablespoons Multigrain Pancake Mix (I use this)

2 Tablespoons Almond Meal (aka Ground Almonds, aka Almond Flour)

1 scoop Vanilla Protein Powder

1/2 teaspoon Apple Pie Spice

Pinch salt

Optional topping:

1 teaspoon Xylitol

dash of Apple Pie Spice

Mix egg, milk, syrup, apple butter and oil and combine thoroughly. In a separate bowl, mix pancake mix, almond meal, protein powder, pie spice and salt. Tip dry into wet and stir till combined. Pour into a non stick mini muffin pan that has been sprayed with Pam. Sprinkle with optional topping.

Bake at 350 for 8-10 minutes, until knife inserted comes out clean. Makes 12.

STOP....look around....and proceed

2010-10-11T12:13:00.000-07:00

Strange post title eh? lol Well, allow me to explain....

This past week I've slowly been slipping back in to old habits...nothing earth shattering...just little things. But as we all know it's the little things that can turn into BIG things quickly!
For example: I woke up in the middle of the night to use the bathroom, I then head to the kitchen to see what I could eat....*YES in the middle of the night*
Another example: Sitting around being bored, waiting...then all of a sudden I notice 'snack foods' just hanging around....so I eat a few pieces. *And I'm not even hungry!!
Thankfully, I stumbled upon an old book with excellent principles of healthy eating habits. I re-read this book in just the right areas to help me get back on track.
Principles such as:
-Do not be deceived, know why you eat!
-Never eat when you are bored or tired
-Drink water the moment you feel hungry to make sure it isn't just dehydration masking as hunger
-Always write down what you eat (which I do)
-Exercise is a great way to relieve stress AND fill time!

Anyhow, after my time of reflection, I now have a better understanding and handle on the way things are going now. This is and will remain a daily battle. I knew, going into this surgery that it would be difficult to maintain the proper eating regimen 100% of the time. I'm not perfect by ANY stretch of the imagination, but thank God that I can take this thing one day at a time.
Things to do instead of snacking:
-Read a book -Exercise: Pilates, Yoga or go for a walk -Crafts -Watch a movie -Netflix!! -Get together with a friend -Take a hot bath/shower -Sleep -Play a game -Play on Internet -Blog -Journal -Cross stitch -Draw/Paint -Clean -Organize bills etc -Paint nails ....and the list goes on!

Let me reiterate, this surgery is NOT the easy way out! It is a tool that is meant to be used properly. I do not want to be one of the hundreds of gastric bypass patients that gain weight back! I have a new way of living and I plan on keeping myself healthy and on the right track.
I have 28 more pounds to lose for my personal goal of 150lbs and I will achieve this by next May.

Until next time, take care everyone!!

It's a "mental game"

2010-09-25T20:18:00.000-07:00

After having gastric bypass, I knew I would have to change my habits forever. My eating habits, exercising habits, my thinking habits etc.
Old habits die hard. Habits can be embedded into your mind for YEARS, whether it's drinking a cup of coffee every morning for 20 years or eating while watching t.v. Naturally, bad habits just don't go away overnight.
It is a daily chore to make sure I put good 'nutritious fuel' into my body. Everything that passes my lips MUST be of good nutritious value...I have no leeway for anything else if I want my body to continue to work properly. Naturally, every once in awhile, I do partake of something very small and non-nutritious....but NOT often. This is a slippery slope and if I've learned nothing else, I've learned that it is easy to fall back into old habits. One Hershey kiss here....1/4 of a cookie there....and WHAM!!....you're doing it again!

Anyhow, the reason for me posting this is simply for reflection sake. I NEVER want to go back to living the way I use to. This journey can be difficult at times...but boy is it well worth it!

6-7-08 9-22-10

Update

2010-09-23T17:07:00.000-07:00

Alrighty, well as of this week I have officially lost 110 lbs!

As I wrote last week, I did do my two days of exercise and VERY much enjoyed them! One day I did Yoga/Pilates for 25 minutes and the other day I did my Wii fitness for 30+ minutes.

Also have been kicking butt with the low carbs, high protein and low fat eating.

This week has been good, the two times I did indulge this week it has been very small (serving size the size of my thumb) and I very much savored every bite.

As far as my exercising for this week....I haven't done a darn thing...and I will explain why:

Last Wednesday I sprained my ankle, I was on call for work of course. Basically, I was leaving a department store with my boyfriend, wasn't looking at where I was walking....tripped and fell off the sidewalk. I skinned by Rt knee *also ripped a hole in my jeans* and then landed sideways on my left ankle. Let's just say that there was a LOT of pain involved. I waited about an hour, elevated my ankle and my sweet boyfriend put ice on it. After I tried putting weight on it I about fell over again SO...I decided to go to the E.R. for an x-ray.

To my surprise I got in and out of the E.R. rather quickly. The doctor said there was no fracture, just a few pulled/torn ligaments. Sweet boyfriend dropped me off at my apartment then went to pick up my pain/anti-inflammatory medicine.

By the grace of God, I was not called in at all during the night for work....the next day at work was fun...let me tell ya. I got to hobble around the O.R. for 7 hours...not in the best of moods to say the least.

Although my ankle is not hurting like it did last week, it's still pretty sore. Still taking extra strength Tylenol when needed and ACE wrapping my ankle/foot for support.

I DO PROMISE to resume my exercising by at least the middle of next week.

Anyhow, that's all I've got for an update. Will write next week and let you know what's going on!

Stats

2010-09-12T14:29:00.000-07:00

Nov 21st: 282 lbs *8 lb lost from preop diet*

***SURGERY NOV 24th***

Dec 24th: 256 lbs *26 lb lost*

Jan 24th: 241 lbs *15 lb lost*

Feb 24th: 227 lbs *14 lb lost*

Mar 24th: 213 lbs *14 lb lost*

Apr 24th: 208 lbs *5 lb lost*

May 24th: 200 lbs *8 lb lost*

Jun 24th: 193 lbs *7 lb lost*

Jul 24th: 187 lbs *6 lb lost*

Aug 24th: 184 lbs *3 lb lost*

So apparently the weight loss has slowed significantly...granted that I'm only 21 lbs away from my first goal weight. I need to reevaluate my eating habits...which will be easy since I track everything on Sparkpeople.com.
So far, I think I need to up my calories for right now. Protein is great. Carbs I can probably decrease by around 20grams. Also, I need to increase my fiber.

Then there is exercise....

I know...I know...I NEED an exercise regimen...and I WANT an exercise regimen....
I know that I like Yoga...I know that I like Pilates....so.......

Okay, exercise goal #1: Exercise 2 days this week for 30 minutes a piece.
I will be accountable by posting on sparkpeople.com my exercises.

Alright everyone, wish me luck!

Angry with myself

2010-08-31T19:18:00.000-07:00

So for the past 3 weeks...I have not lost ANY weight. I have hovered around 184...and the scale won't move! I'm pretty sure I know why....

As far as nutrition goes....95% of everything I put in my body is nutritious high protein/low carb food.
Calories range between 850-1200 daily...i like to keep my body guessing. Protein always 85-120grams a day. Carbs on the other hand....I believe I am overindulging in. Namely the snacks...instead of reaching for a string cheese or almonds...I've been reaching for the crunchy Triscuits or a handful of Cheezits. Most days I stay under 75 carbs but the past few days I've hit 100 grams and even today 120grams.
I am ashamed of myself for even entertaining the carbs as I have. I mean really, I know my body LOVES protein...I know that it loves water...but when the 'time of the month' hits...I CRAVE carbs...it's unreal!
So anyhow, basically I need to cut the starchy carbs out and increase my water intake THEN I should start losing again.

Anyone else have issues with carbs??

Wow..stumbled upon some OLD photos...

2010-08-14T06:56:00.000-07:00

So I was looking through some older pics today....and it gave me some perspective....

Me last Sept 2009 at 290lbs

Me at my all time largest: 296lb

Me now at 184lbs

Happy day!

2010-08-07T10:07:00.000-07:00

This weekend, is our state's Tax-free weekend (tax free on clothes up to $100, books, computer stuff)

After rummaging around my closet, trying on outfit....after outfit....I realized that I have 2 maybe 3 articles of clothing that are not falling off of me.
SO....I went to Kohl's and Old Navy (looooove old navy) and found some awesome sales! Got some cute 3/4 sleeve short cardigans, LOTS of cute tank tops trimmed in dainty lace, a few long sleeve shirts and 2 pairs of jeans....and guess what.. one of them is a size 14!! I think I was in 8th or 9th grade last time I wore a size 14. Here is one of my cute outfits:

Naturally I was on a shopping 'high' due to the awesome sales and my new found pant size...then all of a sudden raised my arms *an attempt to take this picture actually* and saw this:

Say hello to Myrtle...the bat wing...actually Myrtle is an identical twin, because her twin lives next door on my other upper arm. *sigh* I realize this is a cosmetic worry...something absolutely silly. I mean, God has allowed me to lose 104 lbs so far! My health hasn't been this amazing in YEARS! And I'm worrying about my flabby arms?! Yeah...(as I smack myself in the face)
Anyhow...this just makes me want to do some crazy upper arm workouts! Now I realize that it all won't tone up...but I'm hoping within the next few months that it will look much better.

Anyone have any tips on good upper arm workouts? I'm all ears!

Life is still awesome, and I am thankful for all that God has blessed me with!

Fun times!

2010-07-27T14:41:00.000-07:00

So I was feeling a little 'gutsy' today at work and decided to try on some medium sized scrubs....not only did they fit...but they were loose! I've gone from a size 2XL to a size Medium in scrubs!!
The size 16 jeans hardly stay up now....so I'm thinking in 10 more pounds that I will be buying a pair of size 14 jeans. I did buy a size 14 bathing suit *which fits awesomely* for my water aerobics I try to do once a week.

In the exercise department, I've been doing some 'Power walking' around 15-18 miles per week for the past few weeks. Also I've been doing some resistance training (arms) and situps to help strengthen my core.

I've been trying out some of Eggface's recipes ie: Shelley's quiche and Protein cake. THESE rock! Eggface is my absolute FAVORITE blog for bariatric friendly recipes!

Last but not least, I got ALL of my official postop bloodwork done for my surgeon. EVERYTHING looks great from Calcium and B-12 to Iron/ferritin. Makes me feel better b/c I am doing something right!
Will be taking some 9 month postop pic in a few weeks to post.
Take care everyone!

It's official: 100lb LOST!!

2010-07-17T06:04:00.000-07:00

*happy booty dance*

As of this morning, I am officially down 100lbs!! The past few weeks have been torture...hovering around this monumental goal...naturally I hit a stall the past few weeks lol
Regardless...I am now a member of the century club:

I don't exactly know what I will do to celebrate this...maybe go get a massage somewhere.
I still have yet to get my pedicure done from my first goal of 50lb lost! lol I did, however re-schedule the pedicure for Wednesday Aug 4th...considering the gift card will expire after August lol

Plans for today:
-Weight training in the gym (just discovered my new found 'bat wing' aka the flap of skin under the upper arms)
-Possibly go swimming after gym
-See Mom and Dad
-Possibly shopping

This is a good day!!

New Goals

2010-07-03T06:24:00.000-07:00

Woke up this morning and made a yummy chocolate protein shake with what I believe to be the BEST protein shake on the market, All The Whey protein powder!

Anyhow, as I sit here sipping my drink I am thinking about my goals. My ultimate goal is to get down to 145lbs, and on a 5'4" frame...that is pretty good! But everytime I look at my weighloss ticker, this goal seems so far away. I want to definitely keep this goal but I need another one a wee bit closer, just for morale sake. So for now, I have changed the weight goal on my ticker at the top of the page. It now reads 160lbs, keep in mind that this my short term goal, as 145 lb is still my ultimate long term goal.

I just ordered some protein snacks to try from Kay's natural foods. I need something crunchy but something protein packed, especially while I'm at work. Currently I am snacking on peanuts/almonds/walnuts at work and I'm getting a little burned out on these. So I now have butter flavored protein pretzels and cinnamon crunch pretzels on the way to my casa.

In the area of exercise, I'm still researching what type of routine I should do. I'm leaning towards the 3 day/week cardio walk/jogging and 2 days weight training.
While ironing out the details of my future workout regimen, I've joined a walking challenge at work. My goal is to walk 9 miles a week for the month of July and report to HR dept on my progress each week. They gave us nice pedometers and water bottles for the challenge!

Anyhow, that's what's going on here. I hope everyone has an awesome 4th of July!

7 Month Pics!!

2010-06-30T17:21:00.000-07:00

Okay, so I finally got off my butt and had some pics taken. In these pics I am sporting a size 26 pants (not my largest size...was a 28 at one time...but the pants were unavailable)

ALSO only 3 more pounds until I'll have lost the BIG 100!!

Me now 7 months 193 Me presurgery 290

Stuff

2010-06-17T19:00:00.000-07:00

Wow, this week has been CRAZY! I'm orienting 'on call' for work this week and have been on call 3 days, from 5p-6a...AND working my usual 7a-3p shift..yeah I know...crazy!
I do love my job very much though. The surgery department I work for has some of the most amazing people I've ever had the pleasure of working with...which makes this so much nicer.

Well let's see, as of this week I am down 96lbs! Only 4 more lbs and I'll have lost 100!! My eating has been a little off this week due to getting use to the new work schedule and such, but I've corrected this. The big thing for me is to pack my lunch for work, including snacks. My new favorite blog is The World According to Eggface, this blog rocks! Eggface has inspired me to get creative with high protein cooking and actually get out of my comfort zone of prepackaged meals.

I've been battling in my head as to what I should do for exercise, as I know that I desperately need to start and actually stick with some sort of regimen. I've found some yoga and pilates DVD's on Netflix and finally tried a Yoga dvd out this evening, it's called Healing Yoga for Aches and Pain *I do not have a lot of pain yet...but I thought this would be good for a beginner* Let me just say that this is an excellent beginner's workout. It focuses on stretching, balance and breathing. After doing 23 minutes of the dvd I could literally feel the stress lifting off of my shoulders! I didn't even realize how much stress I've been holding onto this week! Anyhow, I'm hooked on Yoga so now I'm researching everything I can on Yoga. The health benefits are astounding!

I see my surgeon next month for a belated 6 month checkup, I'm hoping I'll have lost 100lb before my appointment. I still need to get my pics taken so I can post them soon. It's hard to believe it's been almost 7 months since surgery!

Anyhow, I hope everyone is having a fabulous week. Take care!

Today is a ONEDERLAND day!!!

2010-05-27T16:19:00.000-07:00

Today is yet another milestone in the journey to a new me: I officially weigh 199 lbs!

Cool story time:

I work in an O.R. at a local hospital in which my attire is hospital issued scrubs (scrubs supplied by the hospital) This is a great blessing because 1.) i've lost 91 lbs in 6 months and 2.) one set of scrubs at the uniform store costs around $35 *top and bottom not including lab coat*

Anyways, I started out originally a size 3XL bottom and 2XL top, I am now wearing a size Large top and XL bottoms (in which both are now baggy)

I praise God for my continual improving health everyday! I praise God that I can literally run around at work without the feeling that my feet will fall off. I am thankful that I can get in my car and actually buckle up my seatbelt without sucking in my gut to do it. I hardly recognize the woman in the mirror...it's like the real me is finally showing through...AND I LOVE IT!

Picture update!

2010-05-05T14:51:00.000-07:00

Alrighty, so now I am just a little over 5 months postop and as of today I'm down to 207lb!! That is a grand total of 83 lbs!
Been a good girl eating plenty of protein, low carb, taking ALL of my vitamins daily. I am working on getting more water in daily. I've cut out my tea intake and replaced it with my new favorite drink

Okay, and now for the NEW pictures!

Me presurgery 290 lbs Me now 207 lb 5 months out

Me presurgery 290 lb Me now 207 lb 5 months out

Road blocks and thankfulness

2010-04-27T03:00:00.000-07:00

From March 26th to April 26th....I have lost 5 lbs....this has been somewhat discouraging. Granted I have been working out ie: tennis/strength training. I hate being wrapped up in the "number game". I realize that being healthy is not only measured in pounds lost...but inches lost....increasing energy level...boosted self esteem etc. Finding other ways to measure my WLS success has been vital! It's so easy to compare myself to others that are also 5 months postop and think, "hey...they've lost 10 lbs more than I have, what is the deal?!" Everyone's body is different...everyone has a different metabolism, different health problems etc.

So instead of saying, "I've only lost 5 lbs in a month", I would like to say.., "WOOO HOOO! I've lost 5lbs in a month!"
It's crazy to think that in just 9 lbs I will officially be back in the 100's! *haven't been there in YEARS*

I appologize for not having pics yet...I WILL get them...I must con someone into taking them soon.

Anyhow, that's all I've got for now. Have a great week everyone!

Let the workouts begin!

2010-04-05T16:52:00.000-07:00

Okay, so yesterday (on a whim) my twin brother decides to come over to my apartment (since he lives in the building next to mine) and says, "hey Amy, Megan *wife* and I are going to K-Mart to buy some tennis raquets wanna join?" To make a long story short, we were hitting the apartment complex's tennis courts 45 minutes later. WOW what a workout! And fun too! We did an hour goofing off/playing yesterday and today Geoff and I played for 40 minutes! I am in shock that we enjoyed ourselves AND got a workout! I now know how Venus and Serina stay in such good shape! lol

I am now eating what is my new favorite happy food, Dannon Vanilla Greek yogurt...12 grams of protein and only 110 calories!!

So here's the tally: 1-day workout last week and 2 days so far this week. I'm also starting to track my food intake again on sparkpeople.com. This is a good habit because when I know I have to write it down...I want to make the most of my choices.

I am desperately trying not to weigh myself....I have this bad habit of wanting to weigh myself daily. I know this is not good...just habitual. I am determined NOT to weigh myself until Friday.

Anyhow, that is my update for now.
Have a great week everyone!

Update

2010-03-28T07:26:00.000-07:00

Sorry for not updating last week, but last week was pretty crazy!
As of today, I'm down 4 more pounds making my total weight loss since Nov 24th 78lbs!
To put it into perspective...my BMI at 290 lbs was 49.8...NOW my BMI is 36.4

Last week I made an effort to exercise...I jogged on the treadmill for half a mile...I know...whoopie...but it was better than nothing. I'm trying to figure out what days to actually workout...cardio and strength training. I have some 'saggy areas' I would like to work on. I do much better if I have an actual schedule.
At work I run around like a mad woman and stand for 8 1/2 hours Mon-Fri, so I don't feel too terrible at the moment for not working out. I bought a pair of those sketcher shapeups and I love them! I can actually tell that my legs are firming up. Also love the squishiness of the shoes.

Today I have decided to be a lazy bum and do nothing. lol

Wow...only 13 more pounds to go until I'm back in the 100's again! I cannot tell you the last time my weight was in the 100's...seriously!

Anyhow, I hope everyone has a great week and I will try to post some new pics soon.

Labs are good!

2010-03-18T12:58:00.000-07:00

So I got my labs drawn a few days ago and found out that almost all of my blood levels are perfect!
My triglycerides were 309 back in 2008 NOW they are 106.
My protein/albumin is excellent. B-12 level is in the 800 range. Calcium is normal as is my iron level. I think the only labs that were not good were my elevated liver enzymes (probably from when I had my gallbladder taken out) and my TSH is low...which means that my Synthroid dosage will need to be decreased.

Knowing that my labs are good makes me feel so much better about my vitamin and eating regimen. Praise God!

Also lost another 3 lbs this week! (woo hoo!) I'm now down a grand total of 74lbs! It is hard to believe that only 17lbs to go until I am back in the 100's!!

Wow...this is informative

2010-03-13T12:41:00.000-08:00

One of the things I'm working on is NOT drinking with a meal. It is very hard not to do. My surgeon's plan says not to drink ANYTHING 30 minutes before and 30 minutes after you eat. For the life of me I never understood why...but on OH RNY forum, one of the members posted the following video. This video demonstrates why we as RNY patient's should NOT drink with meals.

Enjoy!

Down...down...down!

2010-03-11T14:38:00.000-08:00

Wooo hoo! As of today, I am 5 lbs lighter! In exactly 2 more pounds...I will have lost exactly half of my excess body weight since November! (Praise God!) Wow...71 lbs!! *happy booty dance*

I've been SOOO much better with my vitamin intake. I'm finally on a better vitamin schedule...something doable for my daily routine. Next week I think I get my blood taken to check my vitamin/iron/protein levels. So we shall see how my body has reacted thus far to both surgery and vitamin supplementation.

Work has kept me busy Mon-Fri, but I absolutely LOVE my job! I'm still trying to learn the ropes...because there are 4 different sections I must train in:
-General Surgery
-GYN surgery
-Orthopedic surgery (hips/knees/backs)
-Cysto surgery (urinary stuff)

So far I have trained in general surgery and now I'm in GYN surgery. Things are getting a lot easier and I'm finally starting to form a routine.

Anyhow, that's all I've got for this week's post. If anything else exciting happens, I will be sure to update.

Until next time, my awesome and faithful readers....take care!

Thankful

2010-03-06T06:26:00.000-08:00

Just wanted to write a post about how thankful I am to have been able to have this surgery. So many things in my life have changed as a result of having RNY (for the better). One of the girls on OH website posted a poll asking us what makes us a 'Weight loss surgery success'? Here are my answers:

I'm a weight loss surgery success because:
-My feet hardly hurt after a long day at work

-Knees and joints feel better

-Gone from a size 26 jeans to a size 18

-Have more energy daily

-Finally taking better care of myself

-Moderation with food has become a habit for me (YAY!)

-For the most part, emotional eating has gone away

-Starting to love and appreciate myself

In a little over 3 months, I've lost 66lbs! Praise God!
I was at work yesterday and one of the OB/GYN docs I use to work for had to do a double take because she didn't recognize me at first! lol She said to me, "Amy! I hardly recognized you! You look great!"
Yeah...that was cool to hear.

Even though I still have 79 more pounds to lose, I AM a weight loss surgery success!

3 month vs before pics

2010-03-02T15:49:00.000-08:00

Okay, so here are my before pics and pics of me now (3 months out) 63 lb down:

BEFORE 3 MONTHS

BEFORE 3 MONTHS

WOW

2010-03-01T15:47:00.000-08:00

So yesterday I was digging around in my closet and found a pair of size 20 jeans (shoved in the back of my closet b/c they were too small)

And guess what?

THEY WERE TOO BIG!!!

Since November, I've gone from a size 26 to a size 18!!

Praise God!!!

I'm losing around 1-2 lbs per week now (which is good considering that I have not started an exercise program yet)

Just got finished (for the most part) moving into my new apartment. Thankfully, the apartment complex has a nice little gym setup...so within the next few weeks I will start exercising. I think the treadmill and elliptical will be my cardio, followed by some weight training.

Love the new job in surgery! It is challenging...but awesome. Have a great group of people to work with and I keep learning new things each day!

Anyhow, that is my update for now. I promise once I dig out my camera I will post some pics of my progress thus far.

Updates

2010-02-14T13:00:00.000-08:00

Well, I officially have the 'O.K' to return to work tomorrow! I cannot begin to explain how excited I am! It's pretty darn boring being off work for medical reasons...you can't really go anywhere...and you basically sleep a lot.

What's even better is that I start my new job in surgery tomorrow! (yeah I know...go figure)

As far as eating goes...I've been able to eat more ie: almost a whole egg in 30 min! I do have to admit that I overindulged in carbs last week and because of it I have only lost 1 lb this week. Total weight loss since Nov 24th is 58 lbs! (wooo hooo!) I am happy to report that my diet the past few days has consisted of:

-tilapia -eggs -veggies -cheese ...PROTEIN!!
In all honesty, I DO feel better when I eat my protein...in fact I find that I have more energy and don't crave carbs as much.

In the vitamin department...I have done lots better. I've been taking my multi vitamin with iron everyday along with B-12 everyother day. My calcium (which I realize is a big thing) I haven't done so well with...BUT that is changing as well. I just purchased Calcium with vitamin D and am taking it 3 times a day (as prescribed).

I go to see a nurse practitioner this week about my thyroid medicine as well as possibly putting me on a different antidepressant. Since my awesome doctor 'M', left the practice...the only other doctor taking patient's doesn't see anyone after 3 pm...and that's when I get off work! SO....I get to start looking for another primary care doctor ....AGAIN.

Anyhow, that's what's going on here. I'm going to be in the process of moving back into my old apartment community within the next 2 weeks so hopefully I will be able to update again soon.

Love you all --and Happy Valentine's Day

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Gallbladder

2010-02-01T07:03:00.000-08:00

Okay, so as of last Thur (28th) I no longer have a gallbladder. The surgery went well up until the last part called the I.O.C (intraoperative cholangeograph) this is where dye is inserted into the ducts to make sure there are no stones present...the only problem is that the dye never released. So either A.) I have no stones but had some random spasms in my ducts or B.) I have a stone or two and will have to go back to the hospital if I continue to have problems. Please oh please pray for option A.) I am tired of the hospital...and surgeries...really REALLY tired. Don't get me wrong..I am thankful for the insurance to be able to do all of this...I'm just tired of 'Recovering'...I just wanna do the normal life thing now. Like I want to work...not be out for work.
It's been 4 days since the surgery and most of the soreness is gone...you know those side stiches you get when you run? Well I feel as though I have one (I think I literally do have a stitch in there) and boy do I feel it everytime I breathe.
Of course...because my body is healing..the weight loss is at a hault for the moment. I'm down 51 lb since Nov 24th. (yay!) Most of my old clothes are huge on me :-) Yay!

Anyhow, that's what's going on here. I shall update more later (with pics)

Things...

2010-01-21T13:36:00.000-08:00

So as of today, I'm down 47 lbs since Nov 24th and have been feeling pretty darn good!
The only set backs I've had are as follows:
-getting in all of my vitamins
-getting enough fluids
-gallbladder

I went to Dr. H for my 2 month check up and he agreed that my gallbladder needs to come out ASAP. My last u/s showed that I have sludge in it. So, next Thurs I will be having my gallbladder removed in same day surgery. I pray that all goes well (no complications). I must remember to start drinking like a fish 3 days before surgery *so I won't be dehydrated* and thus the I.V. placement will be much easier. I have terrible luck with IV's...I think last time I was stuck at least 7 times before one actually worked.

I'm looking around for a gym to join so I can start working out more regularly...I want this weight to keep coming off!
Anyhow, thats all of an update that I've got for now. I will keep you updated to the latest here.

Take care!

Long time no post!

2010-01-07T12:17:00.000-08:00

Wow do I have a LOT of updating to do! As of today, I am down 40 pounds!! My scrubs for work are already huge on me! After I lose 10 more pounds I am going to a.) buy more scrubs b.) get a promised pedicure from mom! Mom said that once I lose 50 pounds that she is going to get me a pedicure from a girl that does hers. I have never had a pedicure before, so that sounds cool to me!

For the most part I have had nothing but good things happen....with the exception of one or two...
Towards the middle of December I had to get re-admitted to the hospital for a few days. My bowels stopped moving and I was pretty darn dehydrated. While there I got plenty of I.V. fluids, another E.G.D. (to see if I had a stricture), another gallbladder ulstrasound and a medicine called Reglan (to help my bowels move again). Well the only thing that truly came back poorly was my gallbladder ultrasound. Basically I now have sludge in my gallbladder and will eventually have to have it taken out. By the time I left the hospital I felt like a new woman! I could finally drink more fluids, keep a little more food down and I have been fine ever since, with the exception of an annoyingly sore spot around my gallbladder.
When I saw my awesome surgeon again he said that if I started having any nausea and vomiting to go straight to the hospital and he will take out my gallbladder.
Well I've definitely had some nausea...and pain there...but I'm still holding out a little longer.

Anyhow, that's what's been going on here lately. I'll try to be better and update some more later on.

Take care everyone!

4 Weeks out today!

2009-12-22T18:43:00.000-08:00

Yes I know...it's been 4 weeks since surgery BUT my official one month is the 24th

So far I'm down 32 lbs and I have lots more energy!

Here are my 1 month pics VS beginning:

Wow...I can tell a difference already! Wooo hooo!! I can tell you this: my bra is already huge on me now lol *of course the first place I lose weight is my boobs* lol

WARNING (Female post)

2009-12-17T08:08:00.000-08:00

Not sure how many males read this blog...but just incase....

**WARNING**** Female type issues will be discussed further*******************

Yeah, so this past week I have had the worst time trying to sleep at night...then this morning I found out why....I started my period a week early. Yes I know, with extreme weight loss comes extreme hormone release in the body....which in turn can make a woman start early.
I can honestly say that I am not use to this at all. In fact, due to my PCOS I would sometimes go 3-6 months without a period. Since I've been on birth control, I rarely have a period that lasts longer than 2 maybe 3 days...very light.
For maybe the past week, I've not taken my birth control due to medication interaction fear I have at the moment. Let's just say that I'm a little on the grumpy side today (my apologies to everyone)

Anyhow, that's enough of that. I'm officially down 30 lbs since the preop diet (yay!)
I'm drinking plenty of fluids and now I'm finally able to eat a little bit of food. :-)
I still drink 100% juice with my crushed meds during the day. I eat low fat/low sugar yogurt. Low fat cheese and low fat turkey. I've had campbell's tomato soup with milk blended. I've had a few goldfish crackers...but my most favorite thing still is milk. Milk just makes my tummy feel better. I know it's got protein in it (which my body needs) and it goes great with the cheerio's I can now have! lol

My energy level is improving everyday, praise God!
I'm keeping a journal of my food/fluids/medication/feelings. It has helped being able to journal and blog...something cleansing and freeing about it.

Well everyone, I'm off to go for a little walk around the house.
Hope you all are well and take care.

Sorry for the hiatus

2009-12-08T21:23:00.001-08:00

Wow, so as of today I am 2 weeks postop! Let me tell you..if anyone tries to tell you that surgery is the easy way out...I'd like to set the record straight and say a hearty HECK NO IT ISN'T!!! In all honesty nursing school and gastric bypass are neck and neck in my book.Both require LOTS of time, lots of hard work. I'm serious when I say that eating is officially a chore to me now! I have to crush 3 pills in the a.m. Take them in juice. Throughout the day take 3 calcium citrate vitamins, 2 multivitamins, 1 B-12 and an iron. Honestly I'm doing good getting one of each vitamin.Oh yeah, can't forget the chewable prilosec (yuck). My pouch is still swollen so I'm having a hard time getting in my daily fluids (mainly protein)
Something I find myself battling with is a crazy desire to chug a large glass of water! I use to love doing that! I accidently took too big of a sip of water lastnight and needless to say...it did not stay down.
I went to the surgeon Monday and got my staples/suture and drain out. Oh how thrilled I am not to lug around a drain tube anymore! The cats were getting a little too friendly with it lol
I think the grand total of weight loss so far is 28 lbs (including the 10 day liquid diet)
Anyhow, I can now officially eat puree food. One food in particular I am craving right now is soggy cheerios in skim milk! (And yes I can have it too!)

Well everyone, that's all I've got for now. I will take pics in 2 weeks for a 1 month follow up.

Love you all so much!

Getting along well

2009-12-01T11:12:00.001-08:00

So as of today it's been a week since surgery! By the grace of God, I have been healing nicely.
When I first got home I couldn't do much. My wonderful and loving mother helped me with everything! She has: helped me shower, assist me with potty business, changed my drainage dressing, got my medicine, and has been very comforting (the list goes on) Also my dad has helped immensley with helping me get comfy and much more. THANK GOD for my parents!
So as of today I weigh 276 lb
I'm having difficulty getting in my protein plus I need to increase my fluid intake by about 16 oz.
Guidelines are 1 oz in 15 min then 12 oz water in 2 hours etc to equal 64 oz fluid
Also my nutritionist wants me getting in 99 grams of protein a day! (Try doing all of that with a stomach the size of your thumb!)
Anyhow, I'm improving a little each day. I see the surgeon monday to get my staples and drain taken out (yippee!)

Until next time readers! Thank you for your kind thoughts and prayers.

Before Pics and Stats

2009-11-28T12:35:00.000-08:00

Highest weight: 296
Weight before preop diet: 290
Weight after preop diet: 277
(weight in before pics: 286)

Home and healing

2009-11-27T05:19:00.000-08:00

So the surgery went well. I had it 8 am on the 24th and they finished around 10:30am. The hospital had crazy high census so it was around 6 pm before I ever got put into a room. *i did not mind b/c I had a pain pump and amazing nurses in PACU that loved on me.
I had a lot of visitors and well wishes on here and facebook, thank you to everyone for your thoughts and prayers.
I'll go into detail of what all happened later, but for now I must get off of here. I'm starting to get pretty sore in my belly (i've got 6 small incisions and a drainage tube)

Love you all

Tomorrow is the big day!!

2009-11-23T06:00:00.000-08:00

So the grand total of weight lost on the preop diet was 9 lbs!! (yippee!)
Around 12 pm today i must start my bowel prep which consists of the following:
-1 bottle Mag citrate
-4 dulcolax with 8 oz water
-1 bottle of Miralax in 32 oz of gatorade
-Another bottle Mag citrate *if poo isn't clear*
**No red/purple/blue jello/gatorade**

Of course it's clear liquids until midnight, then NPO. I'm thinking I'll set my alarm for 3 am so I can hop in the shower (using my dial soap bodywash as instructed by surgery)
Have to check in at 5 am, I think surgery is around 7 or 8 am.
Wow...I still need to pack my bag...lol I'm trying not to get overwhelmed...b/c let's face it....this is major surgery and nothing I've experienced before. I guess the unknown is always a little scary.
Anyhow, I thank you for all of the support over the past year. This is been a long journey to this point...but now it's time for the next chapter.
Please keep me in your prayers and I will definitely update as soon as I can get to a computer.

Oh yeah, and HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO EVERYONE!!

Preop diet day # 5

2009-11-17T11:33:00.000-08:00

So far on this preop diet I've lost a total of 7 lbs! *no doubt due to the very small amount of calories I've been taking in the past 5 days*
On the nights I work, I make a protein shake with skim milk before I go to work. I pack with me 2-snack size low fat cottage cheese, 1-sugar free jello (lime/orange), 1-low fat yogurt, 1-sugar free jello pudding and some type of broth. As far as fluids are concerned, I've been drinking unsweetened tea, water and coffee with skim milk and a splenda.
The first few days were rough, I mean...I had a bad headache, random muscles were twitching all over my body...not to mention fatigue.
As of right now, however, I feel great! I've been researching some different protein shake recipes and have found a bunch of delicious recipes! Over the past few months, I've been stocking up on different sugar free syrups, protein powders and just recently purchased some chewable vitamins specifically for post bariatric surgery. (calcium citrate, B-12, Multi vitamin etc)

Also, I'm going to try a ready made protein shake:

I'm trying the assorted pack which consists of: Soothing Chai, Italian Cappuccino and Mocha Latte.

SURGERY COUNTDOWN: 1-WEEK!!

Day # 2 Preop diet

2009-11-14T05:41:00.000-08:00

God is good (as always) and has blessed me to get to day #2 with this preop diet successfully.

Aside from having limited options and a pretty large headache, I think it's going well!

One thing that has helped me is working (keeping busy)...not having time to think about it.

Only 8 more days of this!

SURGERY COUNTDOWN: 1 Week and 3 days!!

I am now pre-admitted!

2009-11-10T10:11:00.000-08:00

This morning I arrived at the hospital for my pre-admission tests around 8-ish. Let's see....first I had to give a urine sample *which was hard after being NPO after midnight* but thank God I still had some in me lol

Then I had ELEVEN vials of blood taken *yes...eleven*and a nasal swab. BTW the girl that took my blood did fabulously! Not even a bruise on my hand!

Next I had an EKG, which was all happy and normal. I then had a chest x-ray.

Last but not least, I saw the pre-admission nurse. We talked about my medical history, the many medicines I take and what to expect the morning of surgery. I also signed a few papers for emergency contact info etc.

I must say that God truly blessed me with some awesome Christian 'kindred spirits' to talk with today at the hospital. I just love how God puts people in your path that share the same love and awe for Him.

Surgery Countdown: 2 WEEKS!!

Excited because.....

2009-11-09T05:59:00.000-08:00

surgery in 2 weeks and 1 day!

I can't believe how quickly it's approaching!

I'm NPO after midnight for my tests tomorrow @ 8:30am

*squeals*

Will update more tomorrow

Got my packet in the mail yesterday

2009-11-04T22:03:00.001-08:00

So yesterday was a little crazy, thus why I am just now updating.

Anyhow, so I finally received my WLS packet from the surgeon's office. The packet contains the following:

-Prescription for Emend (must take pill 48 hours before surgery) supposedly taking this one pill will keep me from being nauseated for 48 hours.

-Orders for pre-admit which will be next Tuesday, Nov 10th.
EKG & Chest X-ray *to make sure my heart and lungs are okay*

Labs (like around 8 or 9 different labs) *test blood levels for iron/calcium etc*

-Instructions for the 10 day (not 11 day) preop diet (Full liquid diet) **see post below**

-Instructions for the bowel prep the day before surgery
(let's just say that Miralax, Dulcolax and Mag Citrate will be my dearest friends for the whole day.....as well as the toilet)

**SURGERY COUNT DOWN: 2 -Weeks and 5 -Days!!***

Also, I received some crappy news that my awesome primary care doctor has left her group....so now I get to look for another doctor...AGAIN. Sheesh...2 doctors in one year...that's too much. I will miss Dr M so very much.
Although I enjoyed seeing the nurse practitioner *back when I thought I was having gallbladder attack*, the problem is that my insurance does not cover her for a care provider. (prayers please that I find a new and awesome doctor)

Anyhow, I must stay awake for a few more hours...working 4 nights in a row starting this evening.

Update

2009-11-02T13:13:00.000-08:00

This is gonna be a quickie update.

Called the surgeon's office today to speak with whoever is in charge of filling out the FMLA paperwork. As it turns out, the surgeon's nurse is the one who fills out the paperwork. The catch is that she only fills them out on Friday's. She offered to fax the paperwork to my H.R. department at work, so I would not have to drive 30 minutes to pick up the paperwork. Well, knowing my bad fortune with paperwork...I think I will risk driving the 30 minutes to pick up the paperwork. (that's just me)

So tomorrow, I will be driving to J.C. to drop off my FMLA paperwork at the surgeon's office.

I don't go back to work until Thursday night. I then work Friday, Saturday and Sunday nights as well.

WOW, only 3 weeks and 1 day until surgery!

Can't sleep (thanks night shift!)

2009-11-01T00:24:00.001-07:00

I woke up about 30-ish minutes ago and for some reason cannot go back to sleep. My guess is that it's due to working 4-night shifts at work last week.
Don't get me wrong, i LOVE night shift...it's just that I may have to work days for the next few weeks and I hate getting my sleep schedule off.

Anyhow, I officially have my surgery date which is Tue, Nov 24th...it will either be 5 am or 7 am surgery. The surgery scheduler called and informed me that I will be recieving a packet full of information concerning surgery. There is a lot of pre-op things I must get finished before the 24th (i.e. chest x-ray, blood work, ekg etc)
Starting the 12th of this month, I will be on a mostly liquid diet for 11 days prior to surgery. The reason for the preop diet is to help shrink the liver so the Dr can maneuver with the laparoscope better, as well as deplete glycogen storage to aid in better weight loss. The following are the guidelines for the preop diet:

Pre-op Diet
Here are examples of liquids you can have during this time period. The
nutritional guidelines are as follows:

Consume these liquids in moderation, they contain larger amounts of sugar.
1. 100% Juice, Gatorade®, or Powerade® - limit to 2 cups or less each day. (Try
to choose juices lower in sugar such as apple, orange, or grapefruit)

2. Regular Jello®, popsicles, or no-sugar-added fudgesicles – 3 or less each day.

3. 1 cup of milk (skim, 1%, Lactaid®, or 2%) or 8 oz. Light Yogurt (Dannon
Light®, Yoplait Light®, or Colombo Light®) or _ cup cottage cheese – 3
servings or less each day.

4. High protein supplement that is low-sugar, low-carb, high protein. 1-2 a day.
(See list in Diet Section of the Weight Loss Surgery Booklet provided by your
surgeon’s office). DO NOT BUY: Slim Fast®, Ensure®, Boost® etc.

These liquids can be taken in any amount since they do not contain sugar.
1. Sugar-free beverages such as Crystal Light®, Wyler’s Light®, Sugar-free Kool-
Aid® or Sugar-free Tang®, Diet Snapple®, Fruit2-0®, Propel®, coffee or tea
with sugar substitute or water.

2. Broth soups (all varieties)

3. Sugar-free popsicles and sugar-free Jello®

(They also have special guidelines for diabetics as well)

So yeah...until I get my packet all I can do is wait, pray and stay busy! As of now surgery is in T-minus 3 weeks and 2 days.

Surgeon's office called today...

2009-10-29T10:22:00.000-07:00

So the lady that schedules the surgeries called me today to inform me that they received my letter of approval from the insurance company.

She also informed me that there is one spot left in November to schedule the surgery, Nov 24th. She said that no one really wants to have surgery the week of Thanksgiving. I know this might sound silly, but ever since I was a kid I've always wanted a fall birthday. Well, if this date is alright with my family, then I will have my Re-birthday Nov 24th next year.

I've already called HR with my employer and have an appointment to talk about major medical leave, tomorrow morning at 9:00. The surgeon said I will be out at least 4-6 weeks.
I was hoping to schedule the surgery earlier so that I would not put my boss and co-workers in a bad situation at work, due to the holidays and such. I am still technically in orientation and am not counted in staffing yet, although I am scheduled to work 3p-7p on thanksgiving as a scrub.
(I am out of orientation for scrubbing in the O.R.)

My brother Greg and SIL Rosie, will be coming up the week before Thanksgiving for our early Thanksgiving we've had planned for the past few months.

Anyhow, that's all I've got to post for now.

Have a great day everyone!

THANK YOU JESUS!!! I am approved!

2009-10-27T13:17:00.000-07:00

I got my approval letter just now!!!
lol I feel like such a baby, I've been crying ever since I read the letter about 10 minutes ago. (crying for joy mind you)
I am in shock...I cannot tell you how much I've wanted this....how long I've worked for this and now it's finally going to happen!

Thank You God for being so faithful to me, for seeing me through the trying times up to this point. And thank You for continuing to be with me and love me each and everyday.

WOOO HOOO!!! Next step: schedule surgery date!

Still waiting...

2009-10-25T06:26:00.000-07:00

As suggested by a buddy of mine, I called the insurance company this past Thursday to check on the status of my paperwork.

A very kind lady looked up my information and informed me that my paperwork is currently being reviewed. She also informed me that it would most likely take the full 30 days to finish up the review.

Even though it's still being reviewed, I'm so glad that I'm at this part of the journey. *closer to my hopeful goal of GBS*

Anyhow, that's all of an update I can give at the moment.

*yawns* I must get off of here and get some sleep, I work the next 3 nights at work.

Until next time!

Waiting....

2009-10-19T10:16:00.000-07:00

So it's been 2 weeks since my paperwork got sent off to the insurance company...and boy am I getting antsy!!

I know it can take up to 4 weeks...and I need to brace myself for that. Nothing and I mean NOTHING has been easy during this part of the journey. It's mostly playing the constant game of 'run around' with the insurance requirements.

I know this is in God's hands, where it needs to be (and has been the whole time).

I pray for peace while I wait for that wonderful letter that states I am approved for surgery.

IT'S OFFICIAL!!!

2009-10-02T12:47:00.000-07:00

As of today, ALL of my insurance requirements for surgery are FINISHED!!!

A lady from the surgeon's office called and said that she will write a letter to insurance and will either mail it today or Monday.

Either way.... PRAISE GOD I'M DONE WITH INSURANCE REQUIREMENTS!!!

Okay...as of RIGHT NOW...

2009-10-01T16:33:00.001-07:00

As of RIGHT NOW...I have ALL of my paperwork turned in for the GBS.

I had a one on one consult with the exercise specialist in cahoots with the surgeon's office, today. It was nice to talk w/ someone about the type of exercising I am currently doing and what I will be doing up to surgery and after. I know for a fact that I will be doing a lot of walking and that I would love to try water aerobics.

Anyhow, after the session was finished, the guy wrote me an official letter stating that he had educated me and the specifics. I then went down the road approximately 1 minute to the surgeon's office and dropped it off. Of course, before I dropped of the letter I took a picture of it...(just in case it gets lost somehow). My insurance buddy, Judy was not in the office today, but one of the receptionists put the paper in my chart and put it on Judy's desk.
I'll be calling tomorrow to make sure Judy got my letter.
If this ends my insurance paperwork 'run-around', then I'll be waiting on the approval letter.
(Praying that I do not have ANYMORE requirements to do)

When I hear something back from the surgeon's office I will post more.

Until next time...

YAY

2009-09-28T21:24:00.000-07:00

The guy in charge of the exercise class finally called me back today! By the grace of God, I made an appointment for Thursday at 9 am. There is a fee of $65, but this IS my LAST requirement for surgery!! I will see if I can get a signed official paper to bring to the surgeon's office *seeing as it is right across the street from where I will be taking the class*
I am excited for two reasons,
1.) I will be getting more inspiration to exercise regularly and perhaps learn some new exercises
and
2.) This is IT! After this, the surgeon's office can send off my paperwork to the insurance company!

I just have to praise God! If it weren't for His peace and His love...I would never have made it this far. Thank You, Lord for being so awesome to me! And thank You for always taking care of me.

I've grown a sense of humor over the past year...

2009-09-26T14:59:00.000-07:00

So yesterday I go to my PCP's office to pick up 'The final paperwork' needed for the surgeon's office to send off to my insurance company. I thought to myself, "Hmmm maybe I could just have them fax my paper work to the surgeon's office...nah...something might happen."

I drove 35 minutes to the neighboring city in which my surgeon's office is located. After a few minutes of waiting, I got to speak with my insurance lady, Judy. Judy informed me that as of that moment I had ALL of the needed requirements to send off my paperwork monday!
Half in disbelief half relieved I said, "Praise Jesus!!"
Even though she told me that I had all of the needed requirements....I still felt uneasy.

Well....on my way home I get a call on my cell phone from the surgeon's office... (enter the 'I knew it was too good to be true' line) Apparently as of last week, yet ANOTHER requirement was added.....yes as of LAST WEEK!!!
It's not a horrible requirement...just annoying. Once a month *starting last Friday* there is a one hour long lecture on the importance of exercise before and after GBS. Although this is a great idea...why couldn't they have added it let's say...next month?!!!

Anyhow, the next class isn't until October 16th from 4p-5p. I was informed that I could call the gentleman teaching the classes and maybe do a one on one class so I can turn in my requirements earlier. Apparently it can take 1-3 weeks for MY insurance to review and accept my paperwork. I've already called the guy teaching the classes and left him a message...but still no word back from him.

I will say this, I HAVE grown a sense of humor during all of this insurance run-around. I'm not angry, like I thought I would be...more annoyed than anything...but I know it will happen in God's time.

Well everyone, I am going to get off of here and go watch a movie on this rainy rainy day.

Take care

Frustrated

2009-09-18T12:10:00.001-07:00

So today I called the surgeon's office to check on the status of my paperwork for insurance approval. I was informed that they received the correct physician notes for all the months of my weigh-ins EXCEPT: April, May and June. Apparently all that was written was my weight on the notes and nothing else. The notes are suppose to contain: weight, diet, exercise program and progress made.
I then called my PCP's office, only to find that it closed at 12 pm (b/c it's Friday).

(Amy says...."GRRRR")

I know...I know....it will be okay, but trying to get through this insurance run-around is getting quite frustrating.
I am so thankful for my doctor and the awesome people at her office...they've really gone out of their way to help me with this.
All I can do is call my PCP's office on Monday and pray that they will fax the correct and needed paperwork to the surgeon's office.

Until next time....

Much to update!!

2009-09-11T13:24:00.000-07:00

Okay, so I had another appointment with my PCP yesterday. We discussed the following topics:

1.) The error in my medical record concerning my initial weigh-in.
*She looked through my chart and found that it was an error in the dictation, and she corrected it.*
2.) The Lord blessed me to find the UMR requirements for gastric bypass (click here). I printed them up and gave them to my doctor.
*She ended up having copies of the needed paperwork, faxed to the surgeon's office*
3.) Told her about all of the crazy/mad heartburn and vomiting I've had lately
*She ended up diagnosing me with GERD...(shocker lol) She told me to continue taking my Prilosec (which has been helping I might add).
So all in all, it was a great visit. I still need to lose 3 lbs before I see her next month.

Today, I dropped off a rather large stack of papers (my journal) to the surgeon's office. When I mean it was big...I mean...it was BIG. Like from Feb 25th-Sept 10th....yeah....lots of paper.
Judy, the awesome insurance lady, informed me that as soon as they receive my paperwok from the PCP's office as well as the printed dictation of my final consult....THEN they can send off my paperwork to the insurance company.
It's so nice to know that I'm still getting a little closer each day. I'm thankful that this is all in God's hands...Lord knows I could not handle ANY of this on my own.

Anyhow, I shall be bugging the surgeon's office next week to make sure my paperwork was received and no further requirements are needed.
I will update next post with the results!

Getting a little closer everyday!!

2009-09-03T10:09:00.000-07:00

So yesterday was my 'final appointment' with the surgeon. I got to sign the consent forms for surgery, as well as take a True/False quiz about the surgery (in which I got a 100).
As I was talking to the surgeon, he informed me casually that I have a hiatal hernia (Amy was like....."HUH?!")
He said, "last October when you had your EGD, I found that you have a hiatal hernia. I will be able to correct it during the surgery though."
Thank God for that!
After all of the paperwork was finished, I went to my buddy Judy 'aka the insurance lady'. She looked through my large file of paperwork and found that I still have a few more things I need to get before she can send off my papers for insurance approval.

1.) She found a 'boo boo' from my weigh in from February. It basically says that I weighed 100 lbs less than I really did. (glad she caught it) So when I see my doctor next week, I will see about her fixing that.

2.) April, June and July are missing the part that says "Amy is on an 1800 ADA diet and exercising 3 days a week"
3.) My food journal (in which I will be dropping off at their office due to the largeness of it)

Once I have these things taken care of, then they will be able to send off everything for insurance approval!!! (YAYYYYYYYYY!!!!)

Even though I still have more requirements to fulfill, I feel much better about the whole thing. I know God will lead and guide me through every bit of this (as He has the whole time so far).

As for other news, my Hida scan came back and it was completely normal! The gallbladder u/s was also normal, however the side note of 'notably enlarged fatty liver' was there.
Most obese individuals have an enlarged/fatty liver, but it makes sense as to why I feel 'tender' in that area when I ate fatty foods.

Well everyone, thank you for all of your support and wonderful comments. I appreciate each and everyone of you!

Take care and I will update after my next Dr's appointment on Thurs the 10th.

Minor set backs...

2009-08-22T07:35:00.000-07:00

Let's see, where do I begin?

SET BACK #1

Well, on Thursday I had (what I believe is) a gallbladder attack, while at work.

Had the sharp pain under my rt ribs, got nauseated/pukey, not to mention hot and quite sweaty. And of course, I ate a piece of sausage earlier that morning. I should've known because I've had most of the symptoms...just not at the same time like on Thursday.
So needless to say, I left work around 1:30 (which sucks b/c we were very busy). I don't think I felt so bad that I needed to go to the ER, so I was hoping and praying for an opening at my Dr's office. By the shear grace of God, I got an appointment at 3:30 w/the nurse practitioner.

Okay, I've never had high blood pressure in my life...actually it's been on the low side (anywhere between 90/62 - 110/74) Well on this particular day in which I had some of the worst pain in my life, I shouldn't have been surprised that my BP was 130/98.

Anyhow, upon the NP's assessment she said that I had all of the classic symptoms of gallbladder attack. She ordered some lab work and another gallbladder u/s for friday the 28th. Also she ordered a hida scan (nuclear test in which dye is injected to test for any blockage of the bile ducts).

SET BACK # 2

I get a call from the surgeon's office yesterday asking a few questions before I have my final appointment on Monday. They asked if I had any medical records from a primary care physician from 2004. Ummm I didn't have a primary care physician until 2005. The lady then said that she isn't sure that insurance would cover the surgery because I didn't have 5 years of medical records indicating that I've been trying to lose weight. Ummmm if they want to get that technical, then it will be 5 years in February. Next, she stated that she could not find my psych eval from last year. (i guess it somehow got magically over a years time) Lastly, she needed a copy front and back of my insurance card BEFORE I even step foot in the office.

(Venting time) Okay, it would've been nice if they informed me off all of these things at least on Wed/Thurs so I would have time to get them all of these things. I'm so tired of the stupid insurance-run-around. I know it is necessary, but my gosh this is getting old!

Anyhow, I went to my dad's office and faxed the insurance card (in which they stated that they received) Then I called the doctor I had my psych eval with on Sept 30th of last year (please check back to post Sept 2008) and of course his office is closed on Fridays. So now I cannot have my final appointment until my psych eval gets faxed and received at the surgeon's office.

I am continuing to pray that this will all workout perfectly...I do think I need to work on the whole 'peace' part though.

I was so angry yesterday with the whole insurance requirement stuff that I was seriously thinking of taking out a loan for the surgery after my car is payed off in October. That would be my last resort...if I get denied for surgery...then I will be thinking about taking a loan out. Yes, I am that serious about it!
Any thoughts on this topic??

Last weigh-in!

2009-08-11T16:09:00.001-07:00

Wow, so today was my final weigh-in at the doctor's office. To my pleasant surprise, the 5-6 lb I gained ended up only being 4 lb. Also to add into the mix, I think my thyroid is acting up again (shocker). It was last July when my thyroid started 'pooping-out'. How do I know you ask? My hair falls out by the handful, my skin gets nastily dry, I feel like sleeping all the time....etc.

I got a TSH and Free T4 drawn today, and hopefully I will get the results back in a day or two.

****UPDATE- and yes, it is official...my TSH is elevated...Again.... what does this mean? It means the doctor will up my synthroid dose to help level out my thyroid hormones again.

ANYHOW....

I officially have my FINAL surgeon's appointment as soon as August 24th! Now all of my requirements for surgery are completed (I hope and pray there is nothing else to do).

-Dietary class (complete)

-Support group meetings (complete)

-EGD (complete)

-Psych eval (complete)

-Gallbladder U/S (complete)

-7 months of weigh-ins (complete)

-Letter of necessity from Dr (complete)

-Letter of necessity from me (complete)

Wow...it's finally coming down to the end !! (YAY!) I pray that the Lord would bless me abundantly, in that all of the needed paperwork/insurance information/requirements are officially finished...oh yeah and that insurance will approve me for surgery.

Now it's time to wait......

Until next time!

Weight comes off slowly but quite easy to gain!

2009-07-28T17:43:00.000-07:00

Oh my goodness, I'm absolutely ILL!! For the past month, I've been packing and moving things and in 18 days I have eaten terrible, horrible, no good, very bad foods.

It's like I totally threw my 1800 ADA way of eating COMPLETELY out the window. What the crap?! Oh yeah and I've gained around 5-6 lbs!

When I do stupid things, such as eat foods that are nutritionally pieces of crap, I like to reflect on why I have done this. The first thing that comes to mind is not recording my food intake. It's so easy to slack in this area due to 'mis-prioritization'. I fool myself into thinking, "I just don't have time to log my food intake!" WRONG!! I have plenty of time to log my food intake, it's a matter of making it happen. Another thing that comes to mind, as to why I have eaten poorly, is making quick decisions about food thinking, "Oh I'll just let this one slide....it won't hurt me" YEAH....sure....

AND last but not least...emotional eating....it creeps up on me from time to time and although I am much better now than I ever have been at catching this and turning away from it...well...as you can see it still can happen. If the Lord still wants me to have GBS, all of these poor habits must be thrown out the window, never to be seen again. I want to be successful, not this hopeless unhealthy individual. I know deep down that my true, healthy, energetic, non-lazy self is here, and I want to unearth the healthy Amy and not bury her with stupid things such as junk food and poor excuses.

Anyhow, one thing I've learned over this past year is to be accountable for my actions. And my actions over the past 18 days have been lazy and just plain stupid. I am more than ready to start afresh as of right now...not tomorrow...or the next day...NOW!

(Prayers please for strength / energy to do this...as well as the knowledge that I'm worth every bit of effort I put into being healthy)

Weigh-In #5 and the doctor's visit

2009-07-10T12:22:00.000-07:00

So today was weigh-in #5 and follow up appointment with my doctor. As of today I have lost a total of 19 pounds since December 2008! I know this equals out to about to a little over 2 lbs a month but it's better than going up or staying the same!

My doctor was very pleased with my results and said that I lost 2 extra pounds than the original goal weight she had set for me.

Also I gave her the average of all of my a.m. and p.m. blood sugars (a.m. = 96) (p.m. = 90), she said that I am still considered 'impaired glucose', but that my numbers are better.

Next we talked about the surgery. I informed her that as of next month it will have been a year since I started pursuing GBS, and that next month is also my LAST weigh-in month. My doctor told me she is putting together both a letter of recommendation and a referral to the surgeon's office (even though I've already been established with them since last year).

Tomorrow morning, I will be heading to a neighboring city to take one preop and one postop support group meeting, from 9am-11am. Then on wednesday I take the nutrition class

WOW...it's almost here! Next month is my FINAL weigh-in and then I can make my final appointment and send off the stuff to the insurance company!

I will continue to update, until next time everyone, take care!

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Good news!

2009-07-07T14:43:00.001-07:00

Today I called the surgeon's office and the lady in charge of insurance informed me that all I need to do is:
1.) Finish my weigh-in's (finished next month)
2.) Take 1-preop and 1-postop support group (On the 10th and 11th of this month)
3.) Take dietary class (on the 15th of this month)
4.) Have another referral to surgeon's office due to having new doctor and new insurance

Then I'll have my final appointment either August/September and they will send off my stuff to insurance company for approval.
Could it be?? I see a light at the end of the tunnel?!

I see my doctor on Friday and will be discussing all of this with her.

(prayers that all goes well!)

Weigh-In # 4

2009-06-28T19:33:00.000-07:00

So I had weigh-in #4 this month and since January, I've lost 18 lbs! Not amazing, but still it is something.
I see my doctor on July 7th for an actual exam, (sadly I've had to reschedule due to work). I hope that my overall health has improved since last I saw her in March.

Well, I've got 2 more weigh-in's and I hope to be down at least 2 more lbs by the end of July. I still have those darn sweet cravings and find that when I drink more water and eat something protein-ish, that it goes away for the most part.

I'm currently trying to get information on when I can take the next nutrition class and support group meetings. I thoroughly enjoy the support group meetings, and look forward to re-taking them.
I'll be calling the surgeon's office this week to find out more information concerning requirements for my new insurance. (prayers please that I have, or will have all of the requirements done by September...oh yeah AND be approved through insurance to have the GBS).

Until next time everyone! Take care

Surgery Update!

2009-06-17T07:28:00.001-07:00

Well, I've had one of those 'feelings' that I needed to call the surgeon's office...you know to check on my requirements and all.....BOY am I glad I did!!

It turns out that my company insurance is supposedly changing to United Healthcare, from Cariten.
The lady in charge of insurance information said she would know more on July 1st.

I've called corporate human resources where I work and left a message for them to call me ASAP concerning the changing insurance.

WOW....okay....I KNOW God is going to take care of this...I don't know how...but I KNOW He will take care of everything.

In the mean time, I'm retaking the nutrition class next month and will have my last weigh-in in August.

(Prayers that God will work this out wonderfully in my favor....whatever that may be)

Prisoner of Hope

2009-06-16T03:48:00.000-07:00

"What would have become of me, had I not believed that I would see the Lord's goodness in the land of the living."

~Psalm 27:13

This scripture is an amazing depiction of how hope truly effects an attitude.

Growing up I was a Pollyanna-like child. I loved cheering people up and looking at the bright side of life. A positive attitude was just a natural part of my personality.

Now as I have gotten older and gone through certain trials in my life, I have found that it is much more difficult to maintain a positive attitude. Why is that??

Well after listening to a wonderful sermon on hope, I now know it is because of my lack of hope.

Hope truly is what allows us to have faith. Hope is an expected outlook that something good is going to happen for us. I want to be a prisoner of hope again.

Hope allows us to have a good attitude. Being 'locked up in hope' allows us to know that there is no situation too bad, too difficult for God to work.

Attitude is the name of the game. What can help attitude though? Well, I know that when something goes wrong in my life, my immediate reaction is to think something negative. And when I the more negative thoughts I have, there is a great probability that I will SAY something negative.

One of the most important things I've learned is that words are containers for power...they can carry creative or destructive power. I can say, something good is going to happen to me OR nothing good will ever happen to me.

Food for thought.....

Weigh in # 3

2009-05-29T19:53:00.001-07:00

Well today was my third weigh in at the Dr's office. Since January I've lost a total of 15 lbs!!
That's roughly 3 lb/month....not as much as I'd like but still something and to that I say...PRAISE GOD!

Last month on the 27th, I had weigh in #3....the weight is coming off slowly....but anyways.

I finally went to the obgyn a few weeks ago and got put back on the Yaz for my PCOS. Already my acne has cleared up immensely!

In retro spec I am glad that I ended up not having the surgery in March, because I have been able to work through some personal issues with food and my emotions. Granted I do not to great every single day...but 3/4 of the time I do very well.
I'm exercising more ie: walking/playing Wii sports *which I love!*

I'm actually going to invest in EAS Sports for the Wii, it's gotten great reviews!

My blood sugar does fabulously when I do not eat after 8pm and when I eat 5-ish small meals a day. (high protein/high fiber/low starch)

Wow...only 3 more weigh in's, retake the nutrition class and then submit my paperwork to the insurance company!! (squeals!!)

For now I am just going to keep on keepin on!

I've come to a conclusion

2009-04-14T18:04:00.000-07:00

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I've had it in my mind for the past few months that GBS may not be for me.

Some of my family feels very strongly against the surgery, no doubt in regards to the fact that it is major surgery.

With this in mind, I've been going full force with my 1800 ADA diet and exercise. My doctor wants me to lose at least 6 lbs before my next visit with her in May.

My blood sugar has been great not to mention my body acts as though it likes me better at the moment. Even though these positive things have happened....I still have not lost any weight. And I am seriously giving this all I have!

It gets frustrating...just when I think I've got something that will work for me and help get this weight off...nothing happens!

Well, today I came to the realization that GBS is without a doubt a definite option for me. What helped me come to this conclusion, aside from the constant prayer about it, is a book called Before and After: Living and eating well after weight loss surgery, by Susan Maria Leach.

The author of this book describes in vivid detail her experience before, during and after her surgery. As she describes herself before the surgery, I feel as though she wrote about the feelings/situations that I go through on a daily basis.
Could it be true that my body would respond well to the surgery?

Well, on the 27th of this month, I will have weigh-in #2. I cannot believe that I only have 4 more months until I turn in all of my paperwork for insurance approval. To some, 4 months sounds long and dreadful...but to me...four months is not very far away!
My doctor will have to write a letter of recommendation for the surgery and I will retake the dietary class in June...then all I'll have to do is submit all of this to the surgeon's office and they will send it off for insurance approval.

I can only dream about how good I will finally feel in my own skin one of these days. I can only dream of the confidence and energy!

In the mean time, I will continue to pray for peace and patience.

Until next time....

Doctor Visit # 2

2009-03-31T10:41:00.000-07:00

So today was my second doctor's visit. As I knew well, my lab work was not very good. My triglycerides were high and my glucose tolerance test was too close for comfort. So what happened today you ask? Well knowing your health information, and hearing it from someone else are two different things... Although I knew what was coming...it was still a shock to hear my doctor say, "Amy, you have an impaired glucose tolerance...I want you to get a glucometer and check your blood sugar 3 times a day between now and May 15th." She told me that I am not diabetic YET...but that if I didn't make the dietary changes NOW...that I would quickly become a type 2 diabetic.

Amy was like....

The next topic was about my food journal. I have been keeping up with my eating for the past month on sparkpeople.com. I brought the printouts of the last 30 days to give to my doctor. She said she would review my food journal and give me feed back about it next time. In the mean time, my doctor put me on an 1800 ADA diet. She wants me to lose 6 lbs by my next appointment, May 15th.

I am slightly in shock...I guess it was the glucometer part...and hearing that I'm officially on an 1800 ADA diet that really got me.

As for the GBS stuff, I had weigh in # 1 (last time was my baseline weight). Even though my next appointment is in May, I have weigh in #2 next month on the 27th.

Shew....I'm going to get off of here and gather myself...I'm still all weirded out by everything.

Until next time.....

Health concerns and changes

2009-03-20T18:06:00.000-07:00

First of all I am happy to say that I am now officially Amy, RN!!! Passing state boards has taken a lot of pressure off of me and now I feel as though I can live my life again.

Let's see, I got a call from my new doctor a couple weeks ago about some of my blood work...let's just say it wasn't very good. In a nutshell, my triglycerides were through the roof and my glucose tolerance test results were at the absolute cut off...a little too close to the 'impaired glucose' side. The same day they got my results back, the doctor called in a prescription for a cholesterol medicine called Tricor. This medicine helps reduce cholesterol and triglycerides along with diet and exercise. Needless to say this whole ordeal was a nice wake-up call for me.

My doctor also wanted me to start a food journal, in which I track the food I eat, when I eat it, how much and the fat/caloric/sugar contents of them. I've been tracking my food on http://www.sparkpeople.com/ and hopefully I can find a way to print out my daily log of food for the past few weeks. I can't say that I've been 100% faithful in tracking my food, as I missed 3 days over the past 3 weeks. These days, however have been when I've worked 2 and 3 twelve hour shifts in a row...and I was completely exhausted.

As for exercise, I've taken my time starting a program. I have done around 1-3 days of exercise per week. This usually includes doing a Walk Away the Pounds dvd, going to the gym at my apartment complex and hopping on the elliptical/treadmill and a little weight lifting. I plan on being more dedicated to my exercising in the coming week. I wanted to start of slow and work my way up, instead of going 'balls to the wall' and completely getting burned out after the first couple of weeks. *as I am use to doing*

On the topic of surgery, I called my surgeon's office and spoke with the woman in charge of insurance issues. I explained to her all that has happened within the last few months with having to find a new doctor and do the weigh-in's over again. She informed me that the first weigh in would not count, as it would be a baseline. My next weigh in, March 31st will be weigh-in #1. The lady also informed me that as far as requirements are concerned, I only have to redo the nutrition class and weigh-in's. Praise God! For the next 5 months I will be weighing in at my doctor's office as well as continue with my food journal and exercise rountine. If I lose 65 pounds between now and the end of August, I will NOT have gastric bypass surgery. I have faith that what ever the Lord wants to happen...will happen. Either way, I look forward to the coming months.

I will post again after my next doctor's appointment on the 31st.

Until then, take care everyone!

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Back from hiatus

2009-02-26T03:08:00.000-08:00

Sorry it's been so long since my last post on here, but I've had a LOT going on lately. Also, I finally saw my new primary care doctor yesterday.
The appointment went well and boy am I blessed with a wonderful doctor! Praise God!
She has already looked at my health history and is ready to support my decision for gastric bypass! We started my weigh in's yesterday. (only 5 more to go)
She is also checking to see what all I have to re-do as far as requirements go for the surgery.
In the mean time, she is happy with me trying to get off as much weight as I can on my own. So far I've been blessed to lose 11 pounds since December!
I told her that if I get below 220, between now and July then I will not have the surgery.

I had some lab work done yesterday a CMP (comprehensive panel) and CBC (complete blood count). Also tomorrow (Friday) I will be doing a glucose tolerance test in which I will have to drink some nasty stuff and have my blood taken 3 times in 3 hours to see how my body reacts to a large dose of suger.

Anyhow, I will keep you all updated on the latest news.

I must get off of here now. I am driving 30-ish minutes to the testing center to take state boards for nursing! wooo hoo!
By the grace of God, next time I post I will be Amy RN!!

Updates

2009-01-26T19:29:00.000-08:00

Well, so God being awesome and all....blessed me with an amazing new doctor.
This doctor comes highly recommended AND knows what it's like being a 'big girl'.
The earliest I could get in to see her was towards the end of next month, so I must wait until then to start thinking about my requirements for gastric bypass surgery...again.

I'm not sure how long my requirements will be good for, that's something I will have to call and talk to the surgeon's office about. After having the EGD / Psych eval / writing a letter / getting my doctor to write a letter / going to support group meetings / and a nutrition class...it feels a bit overwhelming to think about having to do ALL of that over again.
One thing's for certain though...it will be at least another 6 months until I can even think about having the surgery.... wow...thats like July-ish.
*sigh*

Anyhow, I am currently going through a tinge of pms and have not done as well as I was previously with my protein eating and exercising.
I guess I'm having a hard time getting motivated after the whole 'shooting down' of my hopes for surgery around March.

I am thankful that God knows what needs to happen...even though things seem slightly crappy with my health at the present...He knows ...and that's all that really matters.

Down...down....down...

2009-01-15T17:45:00.000-08:00

Okay, so today is around day 10 of my high protein, no starch eating PLUS going to the gym. I am now down 8 lbs and I have a TON of energy. The 12 hour shifts at work are not as draining as they use to be *although my feet feel every bit of the 12 hours still*
Seriously though, I am amazed at the energy and clarity I have in my mind now.
I am uber...CRAZY happy about it all! God is so good.

I see the silver lining!

2009-01-07T13:46:00.000-08:00

Okay, so after all of the disappointing stuff that has happened since Friday, something good has finally happened!
Mom and I have dedicated ourselves to eating high protein foods, veggies and fruits. *Minus starchy stuff...white foods* Much like my cousin Kelly
Today is day 3 and as much as I have loathed the scale for many months now, I decided to hop on and see where I am starting from. To my utter amazement, I have indeed lost 4 pounds since last I was weighed 2 weeks ago at a doctor's office visit.
Needless to say, I now have more incentive to keep going. Not to mention I have actually been satisfied with the yummy foods I have been able to eat.
I've also started a little exercising in the form of calisthenics and walking.

As far as WLS is concerned, I am still looking for a new primary care physician as my current one is having to close her office. As soon as God provides me with a new and awesome doctor, I will begin to finish what is left to be done for surgery...that is if God still wants me to have it.

Anyhow, I am currently waiting on a yummy protein filled cassarole to finish baking for dinner.
Until next time!!

Putting a hold on things

2009-01-02T19:38:00.000-08:00

So...as of today my WLS journey has been put on hold.
So much has happened today that my head is still spinning.
In a nutshell, I've got more waiting than I anticipated. Things beyond my control occurred and right now I'm praying for peace and to follow God's will, whatever it might be.

Anyhow, while I'm waiting on things to iron out with the WLS, I will be writing on here with updates on exercising and better eating.

Things I look forward to...

2008-12-27T14:32:00.000-08:00

Okay, so as of tomorrow *as opposed to starting Jan 1st* I am cutting out the sweets. I figure I might as well get use to the way I will be eating after surgery.
I can't really explain it, but I'm just ready to get on with life again.
I started walking again, only did a few days this week but it's a start.

I really have a lot of things I look forward to doing again such as:

-Sitting down in a chair *or anywhere* and not take up the whole space in the seat.
-Being able to bend over and tie my shoes without being out of breath
-Wearing my smaller clothes *sizes under 24*
-Going out in public without being embarrassed
-Working a 12 hour shift and my feet not feel as though they will fall off
-Sitting on the floor and getting up without a fight between my midsection and gravity
-Buckling my seat belt and it not being tight
-Walking a mile without stopping for a breather

These are just a few things I look forward to...also they are reasons I want to start this right away. I have not been living...I've been getting by...and I'm tired of just getting by. I want a life again and I am ready to start claiming it back!

Merry Christmas Everyone

2008-12-25T06:07:00.000-08:00

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Overwhelmed...

2008-12-22T18:50:00.000-08:00

So....I finished my last GBS requirement on Saturday and it was a great group. Mom came along as my support person. We had a speaker that spoke about her good and bad experiences with surgery. If you want to read her story click on the address below:

http://www.msha.com/body_sibling02.cfm?id=1124

After the group I talked with the insurance coordinator for the surgeon's office I'm with. I told her that this was my last requirement and asked what I needed to do next. She told me to make a final appointment *which I already did for Jan. 7th* and after that appointment they would send off my information to the insurance company. She then told me to estimate my surgery time around March due to the fact that my surgeon is booked up until then. The time estimate is a little later than I was hoping...but God knows better than I do.
Mom jokingly said, "happy b-day to you" , as my birthday is in March.

I do feel overwhelmed right now.

1.) School is out *which is great* but I almost don't know what to do with myself! I mean I am thankful beyond words for school to be over, but I'm so use to not having a life that I seriously don't know where to begin.
2.) Of course being overweight makes me not want to leave the house due to embarassment of my physical girth. I want to go out and do things, but my confidence level is not very high at the moment.
3.) Also, I received a letter from my primary care physician's office saying that they will be closing their office Jan. 29th due to economic problems. I LOVE my doctor. She actually listens, is very helpful and encouraging.

Shew...anyone ever feel like this besides me??

Finding out more

2008-12-17T06:40:00.000-08:00

I'm a member of the online support group for the surgeon's office I'm with and just read a post asking when to make the 'final appointment'. Apparently it is suppose to be right after the last insurance requirment, in which mine is this saturday.

They are booked up the 3rd week in December and my doctor is on vacation the last week of Dec. Sooooo, I made my FINAL APPOINTMENT for Jan 7th!!

I'm calling their office on monday to talk with the lady in charge of sending papers to the insurance office, to make sure she has all of my paperwork to send off.

If she gets to send it off on Monday-Tuesday, I will have 2 weeks needed for the insurance people to hopefully approve me for surgery!

Anyhow, whenever we get to schedule the surgery *hopefully the last 2 weeks in Jan* I will be on a special eating regimen for the 10 days leading up to surgery. *with the last day drinking gatorade and laxative *yay..* lol

Anyhow, that's what I've got so far. If I find out anything else I will let you all know.

I love you all!

Minor Road Block

2008-12-13T17:47:00.001-08:00

Okay...so I'm not finished with my GBS requirements yet.

Today was suppose to be my last post-op support group meeting, however the facility I was suppose to have it at posted the schedule wrong on it's website.
SO...I will have this last requirement finished next Saturday! (WOOO HOOO!)

At first I was upset, but God knows...and that's all that matters. :-)

On another note, I officially have my Bachelor's of Science in Nursing from ETSU!

NOW I can focus on getting healthy completely and work of course...

I have done absolutely nothing physically active this week with the exception of all the running around at work and pulling/lifting patients.

I've been thinking about some goals for the next week that would be cool to attain:

-Have one serving of fruit and veggies each day

-Do weight bearing exercises 3 days this week *not including work*

I am still trying to get a hold of my doctor *has been over 2 weeks* to get a refill for my Wellbutrin. I have been without my SSRI for 6 days now and I'm starting to feel the effects.

Anyhow, I'm going to get off of here and hop in the shower. I finally got to color my hair! (hot mama red of course).

I love you all!

Updates

2008-12-06T07:27:00.000-08:00

I still need to attend my last support group meeting next saturday and then the surgeon's office will send off my paperwork to the insurance company.

I'm trying to get as prepared for this surgery as I possibly can. I'm putting together a kit of things I will need while in the hospital.

My kit contains: chapstick; because my lips will be dry after having been intubated during the procedure, a pillow from home; to hold against my stomach when I cough and get out of bed to ambulate, books / magazines just incase I am awake and bored; bath robe to cover up my 'ass-ets' while ambulating in the halls and non-slip house shoes.

I've been making a little time each day to do some type of exercise. I've been using the resistance bands for toning up my muscles wherever I go. I'm also stretching my muscles to get more and more flexible as well as walking around the house and on the treadmill.

By the grace of God, I've stopped smoking completely.

I haven't had a cigarette in over a month and I feel a lot better.
Dealing with stress differently is something I am working on as well. Praying, listening to music and journaling are some of the ways in which I am channeling my energy from stress rather than smoking or eating.
I'm not successful everyday but I keep trying everyday.

Hope everyone is doing great!

Hmmmmm...

2008-12-01T20:17:00.000-08:00

Wow...I think I have some loved ones in denial of my surgery.
After telling them numerous times that I plan on having GB surgery, not to mention blogging on here *and emailing them new posts* they STILL don't get it.
No joke, one of my family members sent me a new fad diet book in the mail last week.

I got a phone call from them on T-giving day from them asking, "hey, did you get the diet book we sent?" Amy said, "ummm yeah...but why did you send it?" "well, we knew you were tossing around the idea of surgery and wanted to make sure you had tried ALL other options." Amy said, "I appreciate the thought, but I've told you before that I am going through with the surgery."
***Long uncomfortable pause on the phone***

I've read in my GB books that this is a normal thing for family members to do when they are scared or unsure about the procedure. I know my select few family members mean well, but what else can I do to convince them that I'm ACTUALLY doing this?!!?

I'll continue praying for peace for them, but that's about all I can do.

Anyhow, on a lighter note, I just joined a local WLS group on yahoo and it is fabulous!
I've found great websites for protein shakes, vitamins etc on it, not to mention awesome before and after pictures from some of the members. There is something reassuring about meeting and seeing people you live near that have gad the surgery and great results.

Sorry for not posting

2008-11-26T13:24:00.000-08:00

Wow...it's been awhile since I've posted anything.
I do, however, have an excuse. Since last Tuesday (the 17th) I've been either at work or clinical. So, collectively I have worked/had clinical for a total of 84 hours...in a row.
So yeah...working that much will make anyone's body tired....but my 100+ lb on my 5'4" frame has been absolutely horrible. My feet and ankles have still not recouperated from being stood on for 13+ hrs /day.
Talk about inspiration to exercise more...

Anyhow, Mom and I have decided that after tomorrow *Thanksgiving* that we will start eating the type of foods I will be eating after my surgery. ie: high protein, non-starchy foods.
I've just had enough junk food...and I'm tired of feeling as though I am carrying around 2 people on my body.

Anyhow, I hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving.
I am truly thankful for each and every one of you. You are a part of what keeps me going day to day. God bless

Almost there!

2008-11-15T05:29:00.000-08:00

I had my pre & postop support group meetings this past Friday & Saturday.

The preop was a little boring but we got to watch a discovery health video of 4 different people before/during/after gastric bypass. *Amy got a little teary-eyed listening & commiserating with the people*

The postop meeting was my absolute favorite! There were at least 40-50 people there and around 15 people were 6 months to 1 year postop and they shared their success' with us. One lady around age 50 said that 4 days after surgery she was COMPLETELY off her diabetic and blood pressure medications!!

I cannot begin to explain how very much I needed to be at the support group meeting. I felt as though I had people around me that understood to a 'T' what I have gone through my whole life.

I only have one more post op meeting to attend and then I can send off my paper work to my insurance company for approval.

Well everyone, I am off to study and head to bed.

I love you all!

Wow...

2008-11-11T20:10:00.000-08:00

I have officially hit 'rock bottom'. For the past 4 months I have absolutely stopped caring about my body. I have not exercised, I have eaten junk, I have been smoking *after not touching a cigarette in 5 years* and not sleeping well.
The result: I weigh an all time high of 285 lb, I have stretch marks all over my body, I am constantly short of breath, my seatbelt barely buckles around my waist, my feet are in agony after a 12 hour shift and I am always tired.
Why have I let myself go? Hopelessness...laziness...not wanting to deal with stressful situations...
WOW...can we say 'eye opener'??

Thank God for Inspiring buddies!

2008-11-06T18:27:00.000-08:00

Okay, so after having a massive 'pity party' *in which I am now finished with*

I started looking at my blogger buds that have succeeded with their new way of life. All I have to say is PRAISE GOD for my inspiring buddies! Take a look!

Shrinking Susy
She is my blogger bud from Oregon

Barbara, my bud from California

Amber, my bud from Missouri almost 2 years post op

My bud Carrie from Indiana

Jenn from Seattle Washington

EGD a Success!

2008-10-31T19:13:00.000-07:00

Today was my EGD (Esophagogastroduodenoscopy) *try saying that 3 times fast!*

Anyhow, mom and I went to the Outpatient Surgery Center in J.C. around 730 this morning.

I think I waited all of 5 minutes and was taken back to the holding area where I put on a hospital gown and relaxed in a ginormously squishy easy chair. I had a sweet Nurse named Chris, who by the way has had the gastric banding done. So far he has lost 100 pounds! To look at the guy he looks as though he's never been big a day in his life!

Chris started an IV on me *I am a WAAY hard stick* and to my surprise he numbed me with a tiny shot of lidocaine before he stuck in the IV. Let me just say that it was the BEST IV I have ever had! No pain, and I didn't even bruise after the fact!

I basically sat back in the holding area for a little over an hour and took a nap until they took me back to my room where they did the procedure. The room was fairly small but comfy. I was put on a stretcher and hooked up to an automatic BP machine and heart monitor. I waited around 25 minutes (when the doctor arrived) then was given some nasty thick lidocaine gel that I gargled with and had to swallow. Needless to say Amy gagged a little...

I then was given 2 sprays of even more powerful lidocaine spray that burned a little going down my throat. Not even 15 seconds went by and I had absolutely no feeling in my throat!

The surgical tech and Nurse layed me on my left side and that's when Dr. Hodge came in the room and said, "Hey Amy! How are you doing??" I said, "Fabulous! Dr. Hodge!" I remember the nurse saying something like, "Now you'll start feeling a little funny in a second"

Dr. Hodge asked why I was so fabulous and all I got out was, "Because I've only got 5 weeks left of nursing schoo.."

The next thing I knew I woke up in the post op area where an awesome nurse took out my IV and told me I would feel a little groggy for a few minutes. To be quite honest I felt like I just woke up from a nice deep good night sleep.

Apparently right after the procedure, Dr. Hodge called out and talked to mom on the phone and said I was okay for the surgery!

I got changed back into my clothes and was taken out to mom's car parked out front. Mom asked how the procedure went and I was like, "It was awesome!" Mom said, "Apparently...because the staff said you were quite hilarious." Hmmmm I guess Versed and Fentanyl makes me an unconscious comedian???

Now all I have to do is attend one Preop and three Postop support group meetings and I will have all of my requirements finished for surgery! I will have these finished by December 12th and then I wait on insurance approval.

God is soooooo good!! I am so excited about this surgery!!!

Abscent minded much??

2008-10-20T17:10:00.000-07:00

Okay, so this last semester of Nursing school has been somewhat busy...okay very busy. So busy in fact that I apparently wrote down my required GB support group meeting on the wrong saturday and I missed it.

Anyhow, I will have to attend the ones in November and one in december..THEN I can schedule my surgery.

I go for my EGD on the 31st and then all I have left for insurance requirements are the support group meetings. 1 preop and 3 postop.